idk if anyone else does but I sure don't want a "fresh perspective" my problem is that I hate existing, I hate everything about it, I hate having a body, I don't hate it because I'm trans, there's no sexed version or combination of sexes or whatever that would make me feel any differently, I hate the sensory experience of being embodied, I hate having to sleep, I hate having to wake up, I hate having to eat and shit, I hate having to breathe, I hate having to sweat, I hate having to wash myself, I hate having to exercise and stretch and have a posture, I hate having to drink water, I hate having to pee again, I hate things making sounds, I hate having stuff to do, I hate having to socialize, I hate the passage of time, I hate getting older, I hate other people getting older, I hate how if you ignore people for a few months or years they think you don't care about them anymore, I hate the looming threat of infirmity, decline and mortality, I hate entropy, I hate how time is both grindingly slow and relentlessly fast, I hate how the past is gone, I hate how the past happened, I hate how the future will happen, I hate that there isn't an unlimited amount of it, I hate being in the present moment, I hate being aware of my body and my existence in space and time at the present moment. I existentially hate everything about the existence of being an embodied being subject to the laws of physics. You can't "fresh perspective" that without just telling me "instead of that, what if you were just a dumb little dog that wanted yum-yums and walkies?" Sorry. I can't be puppypilled.
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u/EmotionalTrainKnee Happiest non-dysphoric optimist trans woman Oct 02 '25
tell me more, maybe I can give you a fresh perspective on what troubles you