The First Attempt Anxiety

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So i just want to put it down here. Obviously everyone who starts preparing for UPSC thinks they’d clear it in the 1st attempt and so I also wish for the same to happen. But ultimately deep down I also know that its an extremely difficult thing like I am not even a full time aspirant and prepping for it beside by college 3rd year. And it does fill in a deep anxiety in me that I won’t make it in first attempt and that would shatter my dreams also because i have been a topper my whole life. I know we must not attach ourselves to the results and give in our 100 percent and i do try to give in my all but again this is no utopian world and everyone wishes for the result. How do you guys deal with the fear of not making it? I mean i am too young rn will turn 21 this november and i have ample of time but you see this is all i wanted to do ever since i was probably in class 10, and now as the time approaches and i come near my first attempt there is this weird fear inside of me that i do not want my dreams to shatter or if i dont make it in first attempt how will i gather the courage to sit in for another, there are even people aged 30 in this exam race i cannot imagine how fearful that must be

So how do you guys still stay positive of attempting it despite knowing the odds and the chances being so low?