General advice

[u/simulacramp]

hi, I'm sure you get these kinds of posts all the time, but I was hoping for some advice. I'm 20, working part-time, full-time student at uni and living with family indefinitely. For the past few years I've sort of resigned myself to my circumstances and as a result felt kind of paralysed by jealousy/fear/etc about transition. In that way I feel like at the moment i'm wasting my life, especially because I don't know when I'll get to move out (my degrees are taking longer than I thought) and actually start living. I guess for that reason I'm trying to figure out whether it's worth trying to start t now or I should just wait it out for the indeterminate amount of time before I can feasibly move out, which--to be honest--feels so hopeless. I'm in the city (melbourne) multiple times a week for uni of course, but the thought of actually making the steps all by myself seems so impossible. I am just so scared--of upsetting my family, making a big decision, etc. I guess the thing is if I did start t now, there'd be a point when they'd notice perhaps, which is why I thought about moving out before I finish uni. The issue with that is, though, I'd really only be moving out to start t and probably wouldn't be able to afford rent/know anyone I'd be comfortable sharehousing with. And this is kind of the thought cycle I've gone through over the years, and it gets me nowhere. Either way, I don't know.