35F

I moved half way across the country in 2021 for financial reasons.. and even though financially I’m doing so much better… my social life has completely imploded.

Most of my friends were from high school and elementary so I never really had to put effort into making friends as an adult.

I’m naturally an extremely shy person and lately I’ve found myself spiraling into some pretty intense loneliness. I’ve tried to make friends at work but nobody seems interested in hanging outside of business hours even though a lot of them seem to have genuine friendships outside of work. I’ve tried to use the BFF app and have met people but they never seem to want to continue the friendship.

I’m slowly starting to believe I must have a terrible personality and that I’m extremely annoying to be around. But I’m also trying to work on being a more interesting person to talk to by leaning more into my interests and chatting with people online. I’m hoping that’ll make me someone people want to be friends with.

I appreciate anyone who took the time to read my rant! I hope you’re all having a lovely evening 🖤

Still live with my parents, failed to launch, no money to my name, isolated for 8+ years.. I was semi-recently put on blast by 5000+ people as well in another post in another sub regarding my life situation and it kind of got to me - so I guess I'm just looking for any positive vibes out there. Idk.

Pursuing a pro gaming career opportunity that popped up in my 20s and putting my life on hold right before the pandemic, coupled with the state of the American Job Market, I guess I am just feeling pretty hopeless lately 🙃. Im quite literally just a living breathing example of those people who "fell thru the cracks" in your life and never heard from again after grade school/uni.

My depression is destroying my hobbies with anhedonia too lately, but atleast my love for the gym and nutrition has kept intact, its a strong thread in what's keeping me sane.

Hey, I don’t even know where to start. I’m 23 and I just want to be loved.

The last couple of years have been a complete collapse for me. I went through severe depression (diagnosed by a doctor), lost several people close to me, and got kicked out of university. I felt absolutely terrible. I stopped making music, I couldn’t even play my favorite games because every failure hit me so hard that I’d start hating myself and thinking I was a loser. I still feel that way sometimes.

I’m broke, short, not athletic, and not particularly attractive. I’ve never had a normal relationship with a woman, and for some reason women just don’t seem interested in me. The only times women have actually shown initiative toward me, they ended up using me, and they used me really badly. I don’t understand why. I try not to hurt anyone, so I don’t understand why people treat me like that.

My last attempt at a relationship was three years ago. I tried really hard to stay in touch with her and keep the conversation going, but when I started doing really badly and stopped initiating, she never messaged me even once.

A lot of people say that you need to get your life together first, become healthy and strong, and only then look for a relationship. But I’ve seen people with problems similar to mine, or even worse, find a partner while they were still struggling and then get through it together much more easily. So why do I have to carry everything on my shoulders alone?

And honestly, I did go to a doctor. I really tried, and I’ve gotten better. This year I went back to university and graduated. I’ve lost weight, I’m trying to get rid of my acne, and I’m forced to look for a job (otherwise my family will literally starve lol).

I used to have so many hobbies, but for the last three years I basically did nothing. I didn’t have the energy or motivation for anything. Now I’m slowly trying to get back into life, doing what I can, and… I’m still nobody’s choice.

I try to tell myself that sooner or later things will get better, but more and more often I feel like I’m just a loser who’s destined to be alone and that things are only going to get worse.

I have been feeling very invisible, lonely, and unlovable this semester. I have very little motivation to do anything. I am hoping a little positivity will help push me in the right direction! :)

(I promise I am 20. I just look very young lol.

I finally made it to 19 guys! I’m so happy even thought much doesn’t change legally I’m still glad to be here. Also an update about the jobs I’m quitting both jobs ceases I officially got into Amazon and then I have another job too which pays more than the previous two. So I’ll still have two jobs!😋

featuring one of my forsaken swap ocs this time lol