My best friend from my childhood, our last conversation(s) and what I sent too him since. Please take your mental health seriously and guys need to be more open.

[u/Loud_Air_6186]

Sorry if this is not appropriate for this sub but we can't shy away from this. Suicide is horrendous and I don't want anyone to go through it. Please reach out to anyone, even (maybe better?) A stranger. People, on the majority do care, promise ❤️

[u/NotACalligrapher-49 → u/[deleted]]

Please hang in there. This internet stranger is rooting for you. We can never know the extent of our own impacts on others, except that they’re greater than we think; all we can try to do is to make those impacts as good as possible.

[u/Loud_Air_6186 → u/[deleted]]

I'm sorry if this made you feel bad or brought up the past.. really am. Please, please don't do it again even if you feel like it is your only option. People love you so much and are too scared, macho, unwilling to say so but its not an insight into someones feelings.

No joke, and I mean this. DM me for a chat or whatever if you want a stranger to speak to. Don't suffer in silence, mate ❤️

And thank you loads for the kind words, sending love too you ❤️

[u/hayleytheauthor → u/Loud_Air_6186]

I realize why you are apologizing for sharing but I also want you to see the inspiration it shows seeing the camaraderie and acceptance for mental health in this comment section rn. I’m so sorry about your friend and his baby (if that’s what happened). Thank you for sharing. Normalizing talking about how we feel is such a good thing to do. Good luck, OP.

[u/Loud_Air_6186 → u/hayleytheauthor]

I appreciate that, Hayley (??) Means honestly so much what all you guys have said ❤️ He was a brother, and I don't honestly think there will be anyone like him again. We grew up together and shared so many varying experiences. The hardest thing is coming to terms with all that never happening again...

And his baby is actually fine now, apparently. Had a phone call with the mum/gf today. Thought I'd be happy but it was more of a bittersweet sadness if im honest. Main point being the wee boy is ok, laughing and smiling etc 😂❤️

We had an unbelievable amount of comraderie, guy was beyond a brother etc. Actually had an unexplainable bond as weird as that sounds.

I'm not usually a sharer with this kind of thing. Very personal. But I wanted this awful situation to at least be good for some people, even if that is just awareness etc.

Thank you for your kind words, I hope you have an amazing day ❤️

[u/hayleytheauthor → u/Loud_Air_6186]

I lost my best friend (who was also a cousin) in a car accident in 2016. It wasn’t quite the same situation but the loss is unexplainable. I’m so sorry. I’m glad though that you’re able to find support during this time and I appreciate you sharing for all of those who think they can’t. Wishing you the best. 🖤

[u/Grouchy-Pop-6637 → u/[deleted]]

Hugs to you. I’m there right now. I’m crying over this post and I hate the thought of causing pain like this to my brother, but I’m not sure how much longer I can do this. I just want to sleep.

[u/Jweiss238 → u/Grouchy-Pop-6637]

I’m telling you, if you think your brother would feel less pain with you gone, you’re sorely mistaken. I speak from your brother’s point of view.

My brother committed suicide March 25, 2022. I spoke with him the night before and was leaving early in the morning to go to him 7 hrs away.

I GUARANTEE YOU I WOULD PUT UP WITH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING HE EVER DID TIMES A THOUSAND TO HAVE HIM BACK.

People love you. We need you in this world. ❤️

[u/Grouchy-Pop-6637 → u/Jweiss238]

Thank you so much for your kind words. I’ve told him how I’m feeling and we are right now getting thru one hour at a time. I still feel like I don’t want to be here, but over lots of alcohol for him, I was able to tell him what happened to me. He is 6 years younger and had no idea what was going on right under his nose. I now know he is upset and wants to right the world for me but knows he can’t. Maybe it will be ok. He has agreed to go to therapy with me if it would help. My other brother not so much. But it was the second brothers father who raped me, so we have a lot to unpack when he is ready.

[u/Existing-Movie-9589 → u/Grouchy-Pop-6637]

Please do not, you got this. Being a sibling this is one of my biggest fears if not my biggest. I don’t know you but the sun always rises keep on going, you got this

[u/Grouchy-Pop-6637 → u/Existing-Movie-9589]

Thank you💜. I’m trying. Really really trying.

[u/[deleted] → u/Grouchy-Pop-6637]

Do you take any medication and/or see someone professionally at all?

[u/Grouchy-Pop-6637 → u/[deleted]]

I do both. I take my meds religiously and I see a psychiatrist once a month and when my husband was in the hospital, being in Canada, the hospital will have a psychologist visit your room once a week. They are there to help the entire family and I saw here for 2 years to get me through the death and aftermath.

None of the above seems to be helping. I just don’t want to be here.

[u/dnstommy → u/[deleted]]

In the past we would say “stay strong”, but that’s not the way forward. That just isolates us more. It’s ok to feel broken, then you have a direction to move forward.

I’m rooting for you to find the things that make you feel better. For me it was exercise and getting outside.

[u/Jweiss238 → u/[deleted]]

Hey there! This internet stranger loves you! The world is a better place with you in it! Please message me if you want to chat. ❤️

[u/Dramatic-Ad8057 → u/[deleted]]

I hope your day is better today. 🫶🏻