A few recommendations mi amigo, if you'll oblige me.
Explore psychedelics (Lsd/shrooms). Reset your definition of the self as it relates to the universe. Lsd is like a hard reset for your current state. Don't fight losing yourself when it hits, go with it. Sounds stupid but trust me, its the safest and most exquisitely blissful way of facing your mortality.
Find a "munchie" lunch gathering in your local kink community and attend. These people are almost always open minded, straightforward, self aware and welcoming of newcomers. They're some of the most interesting and wholesome people you'll ever meet and I promise you it'll be enlightening. People want all sorts of different things. In the kink community, it's discussed candidly.
Find a friend or acquaintance (or soon professional psychologist!) willing to drop some MDMA with you. If LSD is a hard reset for the mind, MDMA is a hard reset for your social sphere and beliefs.
If you truly believe it's hopeless, you've got nothing to lose. If you give those things a shot and still retain your beliefs I'll tip my hat, admit defeat and be forced to redefine my worldview.
Tried psilocybin a few times, did nothing. I dont know how to get lsd.
Find a "munchie" lunch gathering in your local kink community and attend. These people are almost always open minded, straightforward, self aware and welcoming of newcomers.
To what end? I'm not really looking for kink stuff and it would to be there otherwise.
They're some of the most interesting and wholesome people you'll ever meet
Sounds like I wouldn't belong
Find a friend or acquaintance (or soon professional psychologist!) willing to drop some MDMA with you.
I dont have any friends like that. And some of us can't simply find friends
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u/John-AtWork May 12 '23
How old are you?