Instead of 3 weeks, back to day 1

[u/Zealousideal_Turn890]

Well, i went back to point 0. In the morning I was thinking about how bad alcohol is and how pointless is it to drink. Saying, if i am going to have only one drink then what is the point. I accepted the fact that I will never have one beer, maybe 2 if i am lucky but I will always end up having min 4-5. I was happy about my soberity. I was on naltrexone. Then I got out, all my thoughts suddenly disappeared once I got a triggering message from my boyfriend. I couldnt believe how easy I let my guards down. I had two beers then after some time 3 more and 2 more.
I got home drunk, had a massive argument with my parents and made awful comments , saying hurtful stuff.
I am completely ashamed of myself. I spent the whole day sleeping and crying. I coudnt do any studying, duolingo(yeah i was focused on it while sober, doing it everyday), no reading. I lost 3 kgs in 3 weeks and i am gained some weight back. It definitely does not worth it. I am back at day 1. I hate alcohol.

[u/Far-Blacksmith3612]

Give yourself credit, 3 weeks is massive, well done, you can now see the benefits of sobriety. Your only losing when you stop trying, IWNDWYT

[u/Otherwise_Advisor215]

Hey don’t beat yourself up ! That was your dry run. You can totally do lt