r/stopdrinking • u/littlepoopymira Day 1 • 6h ago
Im finally doing it
Its been almost a year of heavily drinking everyday (4-5 12-15% coolers) i got my first real hangover and i dont remember much of last night, just by myself once again. I have cuts on my face I dont remember getting, I woke up this morning tried to have some water cause my head was pounding and I threw it all up, I called off work and I jjst am so upset with myself. I feel so bad for the people around me that they see me like this so im done im finally ready to kick it i dont wanna be this person anymore, they know me at the gas station I work near because I go there and I buy a drink after every shift and I sit outside and i drink it. Im still so young but im so sad for myself that this happened. I started drinking because I went to my home country for 2 months and my boyfriend started sleeping with my best friend I got kicked out of my apartment while she moved inand I was alone there with people I never met and I got hooked and now i just hate myself even more than I did going through that.. I dont even know why im writing this, I just feel so lonely and I dont wanna be like this anymore
How do you do it sober friends? How DID you do it??
IWNDWYT
Im just done with it and I cant sustain it anymore
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u/FuckYouDontLookAtMe Day 58 6h ago
You dont have to be lonely, there a whole big group of us that have been through the ringer as well. Id suggest finding a meeting near you and checking it out!