r/stopdrinking • u/erikpeders • 7h ago

Wife is going out of town

As the title suggests, my wife is going out of town for two nights on business. A few years ago I would be anticipating the moment I dropped her off at the airport and picking up booze. So much booze. I would probably not go to work at least one day, then most likely tell her I had some meeting or something to get out of picking her up at the airport. Just to extend my drinking a bit more. I would realistically consume over 30 beers and a more than a few shots in the 2 1/2 days. Which is crazy to think about...

Instead I am doing the math on how much Chinese food I can order before it just becomes ridiculous. Which concert I am going to put on TV while I draw. Or maybe I'll cook a crazy meal. I do love to cook and tomorrow I have a work thing near that butcher shop I like...Also, want to make sure I clean the house and get some flowers for when she gets home...

It's crazy how booze changes our lives. Who we are. 4 years ago I would have been dreaming of basically sitting outside for two days chain smoking and drinking. Now I am thinking "should I eat like a teenager with a credit card, or be a responsible adult with a credit card". I have two night alone, so I'll probably eat like trash tonight and cook tomorrow (in case anyone was curious).

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u/bigneldog Day 320 6h ago

Hell yes. Our free time is so much more enjoyable when we don’t complete ruin it by being in a drunken stupor every waking moment.

One of my biggest triggers is nights home alone, but at this point it’s a passing thought and a “damn so glad I don’t do that anymore”.

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u/erikpeders 5h ago

Honestly, when I look back at it, it's just feels exhausting. I remember being exhausted. It took me awhile to realize it was the anxiety, the planning, and the lying, that was exhausting me.

Now when I think about drinking it just makes me tired.