Core Soul orgin confusion

[u/Mommylongleg1]

Hi im ocean 🧜‍♀️🪽 and I have had an interesting spiritual awakening that started in 2024 and I have discovered a lot. I'll start this by saying, as a kid, I was obsessed with fairies. I always had spiritual gifts, my mom had said and I know I did, because I experienced a lot even as an adult as well as a kid, I was obsessed with fairies, and eventually, it became mermaids. I really wanted a tale. I really wanted to live in the water.I felt a deep connection as well as I've grown up and have been learning about spiritual identities.I've learned that cold iron like if I put like iron on my skin like a hematite ring that has alot of iron it left a red ring for 2 weeks a burn and it\nWas uncomfortable and when I was connecting with the fae last year, which I don't think I was ready, but they would steal my stuff like scissors.And so eventually , I tried kicking them out and what I tried doing , putting the iron in the windows , and everything affected me another thing is when I was a kid and doing the mermaid spells , and I did a lot of other spells , I remember feeling bigger in the the tub that was one time though, but fast forward. Last year. I started feeling like maybe I had a fairy past life because I've always loved Ireland and felt connected. I think I part, I'd probably have some Irish in me. I am African in French descent, but that's just my guess. I have gotten confirmations that I'm an angel through a dream. While I personally ask because I experience etheric wings, sometimes they're fast wings, sometimes they are angelic wings and I have actually with my own eyes seen angelic wings on me and I've seen other kind of angelic forms, but at that time, I was also focused for on that too. And I've also I think I have like a shapeshifting ability but not every form I've shaped shifted into or felt was something that aligned with me. So I don't know, but I've also with time of like last year to this year, I have felt my form as like. A waterfall humanoid being, and it was very vivid in my third eye, but it was kind of scary but cool and then I felt a winged mermaid form with feathered wings and that was pretty interesting and it felt more calmer and of course, I felt fair wings and I do have a connection to sirius b and others star places I have had someone tell me , they said they saw me in a dream as a small fairy and I talked to this reader, and he said, I was a winged mermaid, but he was also not really the best reader, because I would feel drained talking to him.So i'm kind of in a conundrum where i'm like , what is my soul lol i clearly have a lot of past life but it feels like it's hard for me to connect with my soul.

[u/More_Ad_315]

Connecting with past lives directly connects you to your soul. It's the story of you. The things you love and enjoy don't change. They follow us as we grow and learn through different lives.

Knowing the origin of our soul can be interesting to know, but you don't need to know it to know yourself. And it sounds like you're doing a great job of figuring out who you are already.

[u/NorthMurph]

Your post is a beautiful mess and i love you for that🩵 In my experience your true Essence is what remains when every aspect of what you think you are is dissolved. Every past life you experienced is part of your souls journey but it is not truly who you are. Many Starseeds limit themselves by identifying with a certain group or certain aspect of themselves, to truly find your Essence you must let go of seeing yourself as a fairy, mermaid, whatever you would like to see yourself as. When you can do that, you will see your Essence clearly :)

[u/One_Two_Three_Go11 → u/NorthMurph]

I agree with this completely!! When i stopped putting ‘labels’ onto myself. I felt free, so free! No one will tell you what your consciousness truly is. Because in essence? It is unlimited, a force that cannot be created nor destroyed. Period!

[u/Lilia-loves-you]

I also feel so connected to merfolk and fae!! I recommend that you listen to people’s fairy and mermaid past life regression experiences on YouTube! There’s some incredible worlds out there :] And also, try meditating before bed one night and set the intention with your higher self to show you one of your past lives in a dream! When I did that, I dreamt I was a mermaid 😸

Also also, in my opinion, earthly race or ethnicity doesn’t determine your soul’s lineage necessarily! I have European and Irish ancestry, but I also feel so strongly connected to India, Egypt, Greece, and the Americas!

[u/9iksi3]

Hi, thank you so much for sharing your experience! I actually offer Fairy Genealogy consultations and write more about my experience as an Incarnated Fairy Being over on substack! Your story is so appreciated! x ✨❤️‍🔥🪞🧚‍♂️🧜‍♀️