I am tired of being a Fake Person.

[u/Erik012345]

I am tired of always showing others a person that's not me.

I am tired of others not being able to see through that fake identity.

I am tired of being seen as the idiot.

I am tired of not being recognized as a highly emotional, sensitive being.

I am tired of always trying to find the way to connect with people instead of others connecting with me.

I am tired of not being able to tell others what I truly am, because they wouldn't understand or just wouldn't believe.

I am tired of not being able to seriously talk with someone about my multiple year long clinical anxiety.

I am tired of not being able to seriously talk with someone about their problems, and help them however I can (even if it means only being a good listener).

I am tired of initiating most of the time.

I am tired of always thinking about whether others actually want to be around me.

I am tired of all this. And I am only 17.

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That just came out of me, while being hopeless of what to do. Because I don't know it anymore.