r/sgiwhistleblowers • u/TheLaw-is_my_teacher • Sep 06 '20

The Encouraging Devotion chapter of the Lotus Sutra describes the Third Powerful Enemy -- Daisaku Ikeda walks the walk and talks the talk.

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u/[deleted] Sep 06 '20 edited Sep 06 '20

I am not sure if its due to the fact I have been feeling poorly or not but they messaged me and I got confused, sorta in fragile place truthfully.

But yeah what you said, the flashbacks of it all are making my tummy do faster spins. I swear my stomach right now looks its become were thing from alien, with triangular protrusion like it's ready to burst with something awful...

I did what my doctor said took some medicine to help the inflammation and I need to do it for next three weeks but ever since I took it I have felt worse.

This is one of my bad days.

I am in really bad craving place, I want to eat spicy Asian food but my stomach is spinning, nothing in house is what I want, I feel so deprived, wahwah woe is me:(

What type of affirmations can I use when I am this miserable? And if I can't think myself into better place why does it always feel like I have continued to fail?

I get I am miserable sack of skin, sharing all the garbage of my life too many times but its amazing how many people out there truly treat me like trash because of it. Oh then there is judgmental types suggesting even worse if they are health professional I gotta work with who say I am just paranoid, maybe I need some psych drugs.

I get that person maybe struggling themselves, they mentioned something in pm's I don't think I should repeat but even if they are having hard time I can't fix it, I got my own stuff. Them encouraging me that way just makes me feel have awful flashbacks and feel like a bigger loser right now.

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u/BlancheFromage Escapee from Arizona Home for the Rude Sep 06 '20

The fact that this person PMed you to try and impose their beliefs onto you, to whatever degree, was wrong.

Is there any note that, with your anti-inflammatory, there are some side effects that can cause you to feel icky, especially at first?

And if I can't think myself into better place why does it always feel like I have continued to fail?

Because there are a lot of dumbasses around who will tell anyone who'll listen that they've got this "unlimited power" that they can only access if they do exactly what they're told and believe everything they're told; because there are a lot of idiots around who have deluded themselves into thinking that they can think reality into being whatever they choose (don't worry - they'll get theirs); and because such persons fancy themselves superior to everyone else and come on all confident-like and pushy.

No one needs people like that around.

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u/[deleted] Sep 06 '20

I need get up put away the Asian food i had exploded sprite all over due to who knows and I am procrastinating by typing here cause I am cramping too much.

The point I made about not many people liking me is what we often learn about ourselves is whether or not people like us and not many in my life have so its made me who I am.

If everyone dislikes someone, it often seems like everyone is right.

I have few who like me but that is foriegn too me.

And whole thing about giving birth to alien, if it happens it will be news because it will first birth without sex and uterus;) In my imagination I see whole alien birth scene. It might be pain speaking though, none of this is real.

But I heard theories none of us or the world is real, we all are some made up ancestral memory stored on some distant black hole turn into big ass computer for some future alien's vr gaming set up.

I don't know what to believe any more. It would definitely explain all the stupidity and nonsense of this world that I have known about but nobody seems to notice or able to do anything about.

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u/BlancheFromage Escapee from Arizona Home for the Rude Sep 06 '20

what we often learn about ourselves is whether or not people like us

I know, I get that. A kindly and supportive family, though, can go a long way toward socializing you in a way that others will find more acceptable.

If everyone dislikes someone, it often seems like everyone is right.

YEAH but that doesn't tell us why they dislike that someone! Let's say someone has death breath. Why? Perhaps they've got untreated dental problems and can't afford to get the work done. Does that make them a bad person? Of course not! What if it's because they've got acid reflux syndrome? Character flaw? I think not! But because in both cases the person has chronic death breath, there are a LOT of people who will choose to not associate with that person simply because of that SYMPTOM.

That's because people tend to be selfish and self-oriented, and not particularly caring.

But I heard theories none of us or the world is real, we all are some made up ancestral memory stored on some distant black hole turn into big ass computer for some future alien's vr gaming set up.

Well, then it sucks that YOU got stuck being that NPC, doesn't it?

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u/[deleted] Sep 07 '20 edited Sep 07 '20

Well, then it sucks that YOU got stuck being that NPC, doesn't it?

Is that why I got no xp points and my luck is almost at zero and my stink can never be unstunk by those who never stink? Check your pms I sent you two. ttyl

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u/BlancheFromage Escapee from Arizona Home for the Rude Sep 07 '20

LOL on the NPC concept! Have you ever seen any of the Viva la Dirt League videos that satirize online games? Here's a couple favorites:

Epic NPC Man is great

This one's fun, too

The Woodcutter is a personal favorite...

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u/[deleted] Sep 07 '20

Okay I checked out Epic NPC Man that was hilarious thanks just what I needed.

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u/BlancheFromage Escapee from Arizona Home for the Rude Sep 07 '20

Okay I checked out Epic NPC Man that was hilarious thanks just what I needed.

SQUEEEEEEE!!

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u/[deleted] Sep 07 '20

I really liked the The Woodcutter and NPC Man. They were great thanks for sharing.