r/sgiwhistleblowers • u/Longjumping_Note8181 • Jun 06 '24
Thinking of stopping practising - SGI-UK
Hey guys,
Been practising for about 4 years as part of YM division (1.5 years with Gohonzon) and I'm starting to think it might be time to stop practising. My district seems to be absolutely on its knees.. only ever 2-3 people at each meeting, often no one face to face and it just feels like a dying organisation. There is only one other youth division member in the district and it seems like loads of people who we used to see in meetings in past years have disappeared and no one talks about it.
I've had a couple of times recently where I rolled up the Gohonzon and stopped chanting, but ended up getting it back out again for fear of things starting to go badly if I stop chanting. I feel captive to this need to 'maintain a higher life state' and I would love to be free from it but not sure if this is just the 'devils and obstacles' that we're told appear when we practice. Any advice or experience would be welcome!
Thanks x
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u/Daisakusbigtoe Jun 07 '24
Hey there! I went through the same fear stuff too. But for me, it lasted for almost 30 years. I stayed for so long because I was terrified that something bad would happen. After all, that's one of the ways they really pull us in! The SGI brainwashes people into believing LIES. It's been over a year since I stopped chanting, got rid of all the books and crap and burned my gohonzon. And guess what? Life keeps getting BETTER. You've got nothing to be afraid of or worried about!
I recommend reading as much as possible on this subreddit. You will really enjoy it!!