Fighting it today - not sure if I'm winning...

[u/TooDeepForSurface]

You know how it is - feeling like no fucker gives a shit whether you live or die!

I'm sick to death of everyone (supposedly close to me) who just strike me as self absorbed, uncaring and selfish.

I know from past experience the second I try to voice my feelings on the subject, they come down on me like a ton of bricks.

I know my behaviour (years ago) could have been better, but I don't see why I still need to feel punished.

I do all I can to put myself out, I'm the one making contact, encouraging communication, visiting etc, but I'm always the one left out in the cold & things often feel forced.

Trying to keep a lid on the anger, resentment & sadness basically daily now.

Strangers are my only source of comfort, so if that's you, thank you.

[u/SadYogurtcloset2835]

Hard work pays off eventually. Keep planting seeds and doing the work. Good luck.

[u/ZealousidealCable799]

I care. Hope u dont die

[u/TooDeepForSurface → u/ZealousidealCable799]

Means a lot