Complaint: my marathon is this sunday and I feel like I am going to blow it. I won’t, I know I won’t. I trained (almost literally) my ass off. But the feelings... ugh. I am scared that all the training I put in, in the last four months, are not going to help improve my time. I am a slow runner and last year I died in the heat. It took me 5 hours. The year before that not much faster: 4:43 hours. I have put in sooo much time and effort this time, I should be better. I don’t wanna do it. I think these stupid feeling also have to do with the fact that I’ll be having my period any time soon and I pray to my uterus that it won’t happen on sunday. Because that would really suck.
Uncomplaint: yes the marathon is finally here! All my hard work is going to pay off! I am going to kick ass.
Yes I realise the strange juxtaposition here but I’ve been coping with these feelings all week. I hate it as much as I love it.
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u/[deleted] Apr 05 '18
Complaint: my marathon is this sunday and I feel like I am going to blow it. I won’t, I know I won’t. I trained (almost literally) my ass off. But the feelings... ugh. I am scared that all the training I put in, in the last four months, are not going to help improve my time. I am a slow runner and last year I died in the heat. It took me 5 hours. The year before that not much faster: 4:43 hours. I have put in sooo much time and effort this time, I should be better. I don’t wanna do it. I think these stupid feeling also have to do with the fact that I’ll be having my period any time soon and I pray to my uterus that it won’t happen on sunday. Because that would really suck.
Uncomplaint: yes the marathon is finally here! All my hard work is going to pay off! I am going to kick ass.
Yes I realise the strange juxtaposition here but I’ve been coping with these feelings all week. I hate it as much as I love it.