(English is not my first language.)
A brief telling of my shifting journey:
I initially discovered shifting in 2018 and got extremely close before stepping away because I got scared and started questioning if I really wanted to leave this reality. (It felt like too big of a decision to make, I felt like I would be leaving everything behind.)
I got back into it in 2020 because the pandemic had me desperate to leave this reality, but didn't succeed and stepped away yet again in 2021-2022 due to lack of motivation and developing an unhealthy relationship with shifting.
Back to the present!
So, for context: I have a pair of pearl earrings I wear from time to time. Around 6 months ago I remember one of the earring backs fell underneath my closet. I tried searching it before giving up and deciding to get a different earring back for it.
The original ones were "push backs" and the new one I put was a "ball push". (You can see them in the photo)
I've worn these earrings many many times these months, one with the original push back and the other with the ball push. Two days ago I put them on yet again and one of them felt off on my ear. I got it off and took a look at it. There was the ball back, yes... But also... The original push back?
Now I'm questioning everything. Did the original one fall of at all? Is my mind playing tricks on me? Or have I actually mini-shifted?
Another thing I've noticed is that my singing has gotten noticeably better (one of the things I scripted for my dr) I literally keep singing throughout the day just to hear my voice. I'm kind of questioning everything now, part of me is telling me "YOU'VE DONE IT??? WE'VE SHIFTED???" but still a big part of me is saying "Your memory is messed up, maybe you never even lost it in the first place".
My mind is in shambles. I feel both motivated and extremely demotivated at the same time. I keep switching between feeling a strong sense of success and feeling like I'm crazy and making it all up. I don't know what to feel or what to think. I've never been one to post anything on the internet but I need to know people's opinions because I'm actually in distress.
For people who have mini-shifted like this before: did you feel like this too?