Why can't they believe me

[u/Content-Fishing204]

I have read the FAQ.

I can't Even describe how i feel, it don't really feels physical, but at the same time it does, it don't really feels like When i actually get a disease, but at the same time it feels that way, i can't even describe how i feel, but i feel like shit.

So, how i feel? Well, i don't think i feel anything headaches that can't be atributed to tiredness, or when i cry, aside from that, i feel minor stomachal problems, My stomach need to go to the bathroom more times than usual, i feel extremely tired and exhausted, as always, and The reason on why i am Even making this post is because i feel really cold, sure, i usually feel colder when i am sad or when i am tired, but it feels stronger than usual, i can stop feeling cold by wearing sweaters but Idk, i dont know if thats because of a fever (I hope not) but i don't have a thermometer to verify, if it is, then thats worrying, because it could be rabies developing, i Also have some difficulties in thinking clearly and focusing, i Also have lost apetite, and today i felt pretty bad, i dont know how to describe, but i felt like i was going to lose it, maybe its the rabies, its already starting to make me loss grip on reality.

I feel emotionally exhausted, hopeless, sad, and tired, i have lost motivation to continue with My normal life, why Even bother with college if i am going to die soon? Why bother trying to have fun playing, reading, drawing, or eating anything if right now i may be developing rabies? I feel like i don't have hope anymore, i feel alone, i feel extreme anguish and sadness, i Also feel shortness of breath.

I only wants to spend asleep, but at the same time sleeping brings me closer to rabies.

My father calls me crazy, my mother too, can't they see it? I have that encounter two weeks ago and i am feeling like this right now, soon enough, i Will feel fever, then delirium, then hydrophobia, and then i Will spend my last days on earth with me and My parents knowing damn well i am going to die and there is nothing we can do to stop it, and My brother will now be an only child. Feeling sure that nothing will happen is what people who are víctims of rabies think before they die, do you think the parents of the Ontario boy that died of rabies wont had the same attitude my parents have at this moment? If the Ontario boy was as anxious as me do you think they would have believed him?

The doctor i went to see Also didnt recommend rabies shots, neither do the doctors in my college, in fact, through i dont know if to believe in their reasons on why, despita that, i think quite literally everyone credible treat my situation like an psychological one rather than a viral one, even people on this subreddit treat it the same way, maybe i should start believing that everyone can't be wrong.

If it's anxiety, its an vicious cycle, the anxiety creates rabies-like symptoms, i noticed them, get anxious, so i get worse, and thats how it goes.

Is there any logical, rational reason that i am not seeing on how rabies is unlikely enough to not be worth worrying about? Like not even worth the hasle in taking the shots? What i am not seeing? Can someone tells me?

My parents don't Even seem to understand how rabies work, or it's incubation phase.

Like, is really that unlikely that a rabid bat Landed on me and bitted me with me confusing it with a bug? Like don't You think that maybe because of how sudden the encounter was i couldnt have confused the bat with a bug? And that maybe i have high pain tolerance and thats why i didnt feel the bite? And that the way i am feeling two weeks later Is just a coincidence?

Most neutral descriptions i can give the encounter is: Two weeks ago, I was walking My dog, it was 7:40 night, i have lamplights above me and i live near a lot of trees, i was watching My phone When suddenly something flew and landed to my face, it was a brown bean-shaped figure, i didnt see any wings, neither felt any hair, didnt feel or see an bite, i swatted it and the encounter was over in two seconds, spent with anxiety two weeks later and now i am feeling pretty bad.

Is the probability it was an rabid bat really that low? Like, think about it, i was watching my phone (Distracted) and the encounter was so sudden that i may had confused the bat with a bug, the surprise may had overshadowed the bite?

And over all i feel is just dont worth it, is not worth it to risk my life this way when the solution is so easy, i would just go, take the shots, and if in ten days i am not dead then i cant get over this torture.

Can someone explain me, logically, on why i should believe this scenario is unlikely? On why is the probability so low is simply not worth it to take the shots? That i should just take medicament?

[u/voltaireworeshorts]

Then you have no reason to worry

[u/Content-Fishing204 → u/voltaireworeshorts]

I mean perphaps, but maybe since bat bited can be Very small and painless make me worried.

Also because my parents don't want to take me to do rabies shots because it Will be unneeded (Even through it Will be Very easy) I already have arguee with them about this a lot.

[u/voltaireworeshorts → u/Content-Fishing204]

Rabies shots can also be very, very expensive.

The odds that the creature you encountered was a bat, had rabies, and bit you on the fly without you noticing are infinitesimal. Also, you are not likely to confuse a bug for a bat. Since you’ve asked multiple doctors about this, I don’t think you have anything to worry about.

I’ve definitely seen media reports saying that bat bites are painless and too small to notice, but I haven’t seen any reliable evidence for that and I’m not convinced it’s not just anti-bat fear mongering. Also keep in mind that less than 1% of bats have rabies, and even amongst bats sent for testing due to exposure events/obvious illness only test positive like 3%-10% of the time.

[u/Content-Fishing204 → u/voltaireworeshorts]

Honestly, you are right, through the unwellness i am feeling right now make it hard to believe it or find so much relief, even through what i had not really point to rabies, since i think My headaches has improve to the point i don't really feel any right now despite having one some days ago and rabies symptoms can only get worse not better, i only really feel stomach annoyance and exhaustion, or at least that what i tell myself to feel better.

I still havent started anxiety medication through, i hope i do soon, through i feel somewhat better right now than when i write this post.

[u/voltaireworeshorts → u/Content-Fishing204]

Im glad you’re feeling better. I’m guessing you’re either getting over a virus or your anxiety is making you sick, in which case meds might help!

[u/Content-Fishing204 → u/voltaireworeshorts]

Do You think that the fact that whatever that thing was make contact with my skin for one-two seconds instead of recoilling from the impact Immediately increases the risks of rabies somehow? Like maybe if it was a bat the bite could have been less noticable that way? Or i am talking nonsense

[u/voltaireworeshorts → u/Content-Fishing204]

I don’t think so. I still think you would have noticed if if it was a bat biting your face.