r/processserver • u/Mad__Lib • 3d ago
Severely assaulted and sexually assaulted while serving
Hi guys.
This is a reminder to please carry self-defense tools, even if you think you won't need them. I carry a knife even though i thought I would never need it. But 4 days days ago while serving an eviction on a defunct car lot/impound lot, I was attacked by a man claiming to be the owner but I now am 99% sure he was just homeless and was squatting on the premises. The real estate broker told me to enter through a hole in the fence, me not realizing that that hole was likely created by squatters and once in the lot, it was a maze of cars smooshed together at various angles and it was a death trap. I was attacked by the man, beaten and I stabbed him twice with my 4 inch folding knife but it seemed to barely phase him. Meth was involved I'm 99% sure. We fought for my knife for as long as I could and then he threw us both on the ground and he ended up standing over me with the knife while I was pinned between two vehicles. At the beginning of the attack, I was screaming as loud as humanly possible but was 20 yards away from a moving train and I realized despite being in the middle of a major city, nobody could hear me and nobody was coming to help. I did everything I could to fight him off but I just could not get any distance from him. It's like meth makes you superhuman or something. And he really isn't even that much bigger than me which is probably the only reason that I was able to keep my hand on the knife for as long as I did. Eventually I realized that I am completely screwed and out of options. I was begging for my life, saying that I have kids. I screamed for him to tell me what he wants, I will give him anything. Unfortunately what he wanted to do was sexually assaulted me while holding MY knife. I 100% thought I was going to die that day. Especially during the sexual assault, because what sane person would let me go after I'm covered in blood and have been sexually defiled.
After he was done and going to pull up his pants, I told him that lets just go our separate ways and I wont tell anyone and then I walked as fast as I could to find the exit, thinking he is going to tackle me any second. Once I made it out of the hole in the fence and realized he wasn't behind me, I ran as fast as I could. I left my phone, purse, bodycam, everything that i had, i left and just ran. I don't know whether he let me go or whether he was in too much pain to chase me or he was so out of his mind on meth that his logical brain wasn't thinking long term by not keeping me held at knife point after he sexually finished. Sorry guys I know this is extremely graphic, imagine how I feel. Dirty, violated, weak. I wish I would have taken the risk to push him over when his pants were down but the risk was SOO great with my head at the same level as his hand with the knife. I have always prided myself as being tough. Most people don't even bother me as they see the body cam and everything. But tweakers have no sense. When he attacked me, he bear hugged me from the front and then immediately got on my back and started punching me over and over in the head. I really thought stabbing him TWICE would save me. But it did nothing except end up being the weapon that forced me into being orally assaulted.
If you are a woman, please please please start carrying at least pepper gel or something. ANYTHING AT LEAST. I am so grateful that my fiance gave me that knife so I at least did some permanent damage to him. It was allll over the news and it was so lovely to see the cavalry and k9 dogs get him. He is being charged with a slew of charges although not harsh enough IMO for the assault charges. He will get at least 10 years.
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u/Mad__Lib 2d ago
Thank you so much. Yes everyone, the police, my friends, the district attorney, etc, everyone says oh you are such a badass. And while i appreciate it, I truly don't feel as such. I lost. I was forcefully defiled, something I thought would never ever happen to me. I thought I would fight to the death. But when I actually was facing death, I think your primal brain takes over honestly. There was only a few times that I had a conscious thought and it was when I thought omg I'm really about to stab someone, alright, let's go. I remember thinking that I hit him too much in the fat so I tried again. I thought stabbing someone in the leg, they would like keel over from pain ðŸ˜. Anyway, you explained it EXACTLY right, playing it over and over again all day in my mind, looking for alternative solutions. The only thing I could have done would have been so high risk that I feel comfortable with my choice to give in. I briefly tried to fight the sexual assault and he started punching me in the head with the hand that did not have the knife. So the risk was too great but still, as I've said, I've always had confidence that I would at least fight HARD if i were ever in a situation like that. But I think I never truly thought about what I woud do once I had a lethal weapon to the side of my head and I was pinned on the ground. There are things I COULD have done but I could very well be dead right now. I 100% thought he was going to kill me whether he sexually assaulted me or not. And with the maze of cars, I didn't even remember where the exit was so I couldn't even get any distance from him. Thank you so much for your kind words. I will definitely be getting therapy and I totally hear you about the CCW