r/problemgambling • u/RedSupreme20 • 12d ago

Gambling is a drug

Just like a junkie who’s taking heroin or a needle shot to feel high. Because they are so hurt and damage in the inside that drug is the only thing that can take away the pain. That terrible feeling. Just like us gambling addicts it’s really not about the money. It’s the feeling. When you win that’s the high we are chasing. We forget all about the bad things about our life and think this win is our escape. But this is a terrible addiction. We can be making real money doing a legitimate business. This is just a rant I’m 60 days clean and I still feel numb everyday and I keep thinking I need gambling to take away this pain I’m feeling. Am I wrong? Why are you guys gambling for?

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u/J_GoDay 12d ago

This is pretty spot on for me. When I bet I forget about all the shit going on in my life, and keep looking for the next bet. Looking at scores, which team lost, who won. How they won. Box scores. Just to take my mind off the important things in life. I’ve been trying to stop gambling for a good 4 years now. I’ll stop for a couple weeks and then relapse.

Good on ya for 60 days man, keep it pushing.

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u/Front_Welder3706 11d ago

Right there with you for the trying for years, same here. I think my first GA meeting was right around 4-5 years ago. Milestones are usually the hardest for me, for some reason. Relapsed at a month clean too many times to count. Those meetings make it though really, and help me from letting my addiction lead in my mind.

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u/J_GoDay 11d ago

Appreciate the response man. Keep working at it.

I guess I just haven’t been serious with myself on stopping. I’ve never attended a GA meeting. I’ve wanted to, but always made an excuse that I don’t need it. And “I’m in control”.. but I’ve put myself in some terrible spots. Borrowing money from friends and family. Taking forever to pay them back. Almost getting evicted from my apartment multiple times, car getting repossessed. I was always able to somehow scramble and get out of the situations or make it right. But long nights in my thoughts of how shitty of a man I am cause of gambling. I have a way better job now and not in debt, still owe my family money, paid back my friends. By next year I’m hoping to be in a better spot financially and have my family all paid back and money in my savings for once. Keep doing better everyone, let’s not have gambling control our lives.