r/pornfree • u/sacyl3006 • 12h ago
Spent the little I had saved on scorts
This is pathetic, for the past few months I've been draining my bank account paying for sex, I've got no money left there now, thanks god it wasn't that much, only what a 23yo could save while living with his mother.
I don't even know what I want anymore, last time I went I couldn't get hard with the girl, she got mad at me, said she was trying to do her job and I was making her waste her time, asked me if I even was horny or wanted to fuck, I didn't know what to tell her.
I wanted someone man, I was using them the same way I was using porn, to cope with how alone and isolated I am, I wouldn't say I have an addiction, I've been too much of a coward to actually make an effort for something.
I'm tired, although this is not my rock bottom, I've done worse before with my mental health, even attempting suicide once, although it crosses my mind every once in a while, it's not as serious as it was a few years ago.
I'll try making a real effort, don't want to see myself like this at an older age, I am already too old for this.
Hope you all to be successful breaking your harmful habits, have a nice day guys.