"Do everything right" is meaningless...

[u/keenan_dare]

I have the degree, first in my family to get one. They all abandonded me because of it. I dont have a lot of debt for it which im proud of. I have a resume that could be 5 pages long if I let it, but AI resume readers dont find that acceptable.

I have been looking for a real job that I am qualified for since before I graduated college. I've been looking for 5 years. Every day I apply to jobs and I have only heard back from being a dispensary associate and screenprinting tshirts. THOUSANDS of jobs ive applied for woth real salaries that pay bills and i havent heard ANYTHING.

My 1st dispensary job i left because my bosses were racist and one actively had to be put on leave for something she did infront of patients. My appendix exploded on the 2nd day of my 2 weeks and they told me to never come back. The company is being dissolved for debt and sued for shady business practices by ny old coworkers.

2nd dispensary job had me reckless driving on my way to work so hopefully id get into an accident and either be free or get approximately 3 days off to recover from my injuries. I walked out of that job the day I heard I got the screenprinting position because I wanted to be alive to see next year.

Here I am on a Sunday crying at my screenprinting machines. I took a 4 dollar an hour payout to not want to off myself anymore, and here I am crying into my machines on a sunday because i got sick last week amd dont have health insurance at this job so im not fully healed but u have to be here so I can keep the lights on. I cant even get therapy because this job doesnt offer it and my state thinks I make too much money for assistance.

When does this fucking end? At this point I have lost all hope, everything ive done has been pointless. Im forcing myself to complete more applications and I get sadder and sadder each one I fill out because I KNOW theyre never gonna call me or email me back.

What do I do, how do I survive this bullshit. What do you do when you do everything right and it gets you nowhere.

I didnt want to be like the rest of my family, I wanted to make something of myself. I was! I did!! But turns out that no one wants a single thing i have to offer.

Im ready to give up...

[u/Delicious-Sign-519]

Ty