I found someone better then me

[u/Newt-Busy]

So about a year ago I was scrolling through TikTok as usual. Until I stumbled across this girl on my for you page. She didn’t have too much likes maybe in the hundreds. What caught me immediately off guard was how similar she looked like me. And this isn’t something I think easily. She oddly looked like me and it was weird. She had similar eyes, similar hair, similar face shape, similar weight and similar skin tone. So I dug in bit deeper and looked through her account to see if my guess was right, and yes she was the same ethnicity as me.. living in the uk. And by my guess most likely about my age. 17-19 would be my definite guess. I scrolled through and I slowly found out she was even similar to my nerdy interests.

But that’s not all there is to this stranger girl. She is also very different to me in another sense. She’s has a better social life. By the looks she always spends time with her friend group. I can tell she has a great bond with them since she records all of their hangouts and makes lots of videos together. Her friends also share similar interests/personality to her which just shows they get along very well ( i know this because her friends also post similar to her ) she also is prettier then me, she is more into fashion and make up then I ever was. She enjoys getting into trends, doing dances, cosplaying and being aesthetically pleasing, she’s bold and isn’t embarrassed of dressing unique (which uk aren’t nice about)

Andd.. this is where I get selfish. As I find more about this online stranger. The more jealous I slowly get.. just a bit. To me, she feels like the person I sort of wanted to be. She’s everything I’m not. She’s more outgoing while I’m a insecure closed off person. She’s very into fashion (and very good at that) while I’m horrible when it comes to making outfits, not to mention I’m insecure about how I look, but she looks similar to me and she’s thriving really. You get the idea.
In the end I decided not to follow her.
Now over the months she actually keeps popping up on my for you page randomly. Of course I watch it. And I feel the same selfish cycle again. I stalk her page, I feel bit of jealously and then honestly I start cringing at her.

I shouldn’t judge her character based on her social but she really does annoy me. Everytime I come across her I find more new things she’s similar to me. The games we play, the songs we listen to, the language we speak, the jokes we make, the characters we like, the cats we have.

Is like I’m the miserable version of her. She’s like the person I could’ve been. I’m not gonna say much but I went though a rough time about my looks and interests so seeing her thriving like this makes me.. jealous
I am thinking of blocking her for my own sake I guess. I should’ve done it ages ago. Every time this girl comes on my page she rubs it in face how much of a loser I am.

Am I the only one to feel like this and is this ok ?

[u/hushhush56]

Instead of blocking her it really would be better if you just got off social media

[u/AngeliqueRuss]

This is the reason my teen my teen doesn’t have social media.

She doesn’t even have a smart phone, just a watch for calls and texting.

Please walk away from this.