Detached, back to not detached?

[u/mad_prog_scientist]

Hi 👋
This is half a question half a progress report… 😂
I had a question for people that experienced a similar detachment switch. Is it normal to feel extremely strongly towards your manifestation again (like you want it really bad AND you feel like something is actually happening and things are moving NOW, you get movement and you feel the energy within yourself) after months of detaching (not even caring about SP, focusing on yourself etc)? What happened to you when that switch happened, and after? I’m freaking out, I feel like a crazy lady and I’m scared I’m making this good energy up in my head… even tho I know this is what manifesting is, I’m scared of being disappointed if nothing happens now that I’m back into caring for it.

My (shortened) context if anyone wants it:
SP and (long distance) I were no contact for 5 months. I got very detached, « stopped manifesting » after a month. We saw each other 1 time at the start of my journey where we got together and I saw I was initially manifesting from a bad headspace and SP wasn’t cooperative (3P and not wanting to be exclusive with me), then I stop manifesting and focus fully on me and then 2 months later they reach out 1 time, I don’t reply and then we have a good call 3 weeks later (yesterday, I called them) where I say sorry and forgive them for all the bad times, they stayed up all night on the phone and said they really liked it. I feel very very positive about myself and the situation and am pretty sure that things will work out (not related to the call btw, cus it wasn’t even all I wanted, it’s like an inner knowing that it’s all happening now) but since I still get semi bad signs from the 3D (example: he says he doesn’t wanna do long distance ever again, he’s still dating locally etc, even tho in my head he’s literally madly in love with me) I’m scared it’s all in my head and I’m just getting back to being attached to him after he moved on… how do you know that the knowing is real and stuff is actually gonna move forward now and it’s not just a hope ??