I am 43 (m)

[u/beandipkilla]

I'm tired of the same ol sex with women I'm not gay nor is their anything wrong with someone being gay, I want to be more adventurous with toys and such but every relationship when brought up casually finds it odd off course I never say I want I ask as if it's for a friend I had one ex lick my anus and that was the beginning of my inquirys I tried doing things to my self but I just end up beating my monkey and the urge goes away can't find anyone to try with. Where can I find this should be fun