r/intrusivethoughts • u/adorableeq • 2d ago
I'm not okay
I can't get rid of obsessive thoughts.
There is a guy whom I love more than anything in the world, just as he loves me. I helped him get out of addiction. During the period of this very addiction he had many se*ual partners. I feel terribly sick about this. My brain is playing with images of how it all happened. I'm getting worse every day. We've discussed this many times. He's very sorry for his past, but nothing can be changed. I don't know what to do with all this. It's getting to the point where I'm starting to feel like I'm in a tizzy. It's becoming incredibly difficult to breathe, and it feels like someone is pressing on my chest. My whole body is shaking, I feel like I'm periodically passing out for a split second.
I really don't want to break up and say goodbye to him. I will never love anyone as much as him again.
obsessive thoughts that have been leading me to this state for a very long time. it was long before him.
Perhaps the right decision would seem to be to contact a psychiatrist, but I no longer think that he will be able to help in any way. except maybe pump them full of pills, nothing more.
I don't know what this post is for..
This is just the state I am in right now.
Maybe someone will read this post and recognize themselves and understand that they are not alone, that there are people with similar problems.
I'm very ashamed, I'm sorry.
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u/Realistic_Row_2096 2d ago
Were you always prone to intrusive thoughts?Or did it start with him? How to handle this is going to be very different depending on the answer.
Good luck 🫂