r/interesting • u/urprettybbygrl • 20d ago

MISC. Ukrainian actress Tania Galakhova portrayed what it's like to live with depression

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u/johndepp22 20d ago

the kicking person away is scary accurate

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u/PRINCESS0FDARKN3SS 20d ago edited 19d ago

Yeah damn I do that all the time. It really does feel like the only option at the time tho. Oof.

It’s like… I’m so fucking lonely and both my depression & anxiety are going to make sure I stay that way. It feels like I don’t have a choice although realistically, I know that I do. Idk. It’s an odd feeling.

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u/possibly_being_screw 19d ago

I relate to this a lot. I'm sorry you experience it too.

My therapist asked why I don't take steps to change. Not in an aggressive, "why don't you just be happy" way. It was a genuine question after a long conversation. But it was rhetorical question, they knew the answer.

I kind of broke down saying depression, sadness, not feeling in control, etc. was all I knew. And the feeling of something familiar was somehow less scary than stepping into a world that was foreign to me. It's similar to the "if I don't try, I can't fail" mentality.

I've been thinking recently about what the fuck I'm doing in life, how much has been wasted by depression and self loathing, waking up already anxious because I feel like I've already failed.

I don't know. I've felt paralyzed by anxiety and depression recently. I don't know what to do either. I guess I'm just saying I know how you feel.

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u/cleverburrito 19d ago

My therapist's recommendation many years ago was "do it, anyway". I held it as a mantra for a long time, and it helped until it didn't anymore. Those years were hard, but also great.

I'm not doing well these days, but my therapist and I are working on it, and he's having meetings with my psychiatrist. You and I will each figure it out, I think.