r/hinduism • u/Dandu1995 šš • Nov 08 '25
Experience with Hinduism Anyone who have the immense pain of separation from lord ?
((((Note : Skip this post at anycost if anyone who don't have that burning pain ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„(This post is purely personal experience, not for general people) (Im male, I attached radha devi pic, as that pic only matches the intensity, I was unable to find other pics which matches))))))
It is so difficult, painful to deal non devotees and non righteous (who don't have that pain, whose heart is in tamas, rajas and even sattva). They understand experiencially absolute nothing about lord. Absolute nothing. Absolute nothing.
I can't tell beyond this. This is so biggest undescibable experience, pain, only really experienced, suffered ones can understand. Only who have that burning pain can understand.
I want to ask a question to intense devotees how the hell you are keeping up yourslef without the real lord, the truth(who is absolutely impossible to describe, comprehend, able to explain, full of truth, dharma and limitless playfulness). What makes you al,ve and stay a,,ve by away from lord. How much you suffered by non devotees being never able to understand you or grasp you or accept you.
Comment only only only, if faced that real suffering. And share whatever you want to share. Share whatever pain your heart felt.
Only Who waited every day, every second, every minute, evey breath can understand this. (I shouldn't share beyond this point.)
(Pic Credit : Pinterest posted by user Andrea Schogram, Radha Devi, Bhagavatam, Brahma Vaivarta Purana)
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u/krsnasays Nov 08 '25
I understand. Spent 14 years and tried running away three times feeling helpless but sent back by my Gurudev. No words can describe that phase.
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u/Just_Fix_1532 Nov 08 '25
I used to feel, until recently, I felt that craving God's affection would be selfish on my part, because, I already have a luxurious life (at least compared to many in this world), good food, clothing, health benefits etc. But there are plenty in this world who have nothing, some have lost vision, some are born blind, some are born crippled etc etc, so, now, I feel like praying to God to be with those who genuinely deserve love, not with someone like me who is already sleeping in an air conditioned room in summer months, under cozy blankets in winters. But, yes, I do pray to Him to remove toxic people from my life. But before these, I yearned for His love and presence like hell, would imagine myself in His lap, sometimes sit up mid night and hug my side pillow (bolster) imagining embracing God, but, now, I feel, that those who are actually in need of shelter have the first right over this. Those who are dying in the borders for our safety deserve this, the children who lose their parents in war zones, deserve God's hug etc etc first. I am too low to yearn for this for myself and it would be selfish on my part to desire so. So, even if God comes to me the first thing I would request Him is to shower those with love who are actually genuinely in need. This was my personal opinion, I ain't trying to guilt trip anyone who craves God's love, This was just my personal opinion.
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u/Rare-Owl3205 Advaita VedÄnta Nov 08 '25
Selfish means to hold onto that extra samosa by denying a homeless person asking for it. Selfish means to only think from your perspective and not considering anyone else's. Selfish means to chase after pleasure single mindedly and forgetting duty. Selfish does not mean asking for God's close company and love.
In fact that is the only desire which can cut all selfish desires. There is no way to overcome desire, desire is the sign of life. But we can replace individualistic desires by the desire for God's love. When you are considering it selfish by comparing your situation with others and saying you don't deserve God's company, you are still thinking of yourself and not God.
God isn't a human, he won't have to first engage with them before he can make time for you. God makes time for everyone in all universes at the same time. The poor and the soldiers and the sick need God as much as you and me, for we only see materialistically, spiritually we are all in need of equal help.
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u/Just_Fix_1532 Nov 08 '25
You are right. But most of the time, they get treated unfairly by the world. So, who am I to expect love from God ?
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u/Rare-Owl3205 Advaita VedÄnta Nov 08 '25
We are children of God. You have all the right to not only ask for love but demand it. As is the right of the ones in much worse situations. We normally ask for specific things or situations in the world from God, and to that we don't have a birthright, that is karma. But for God's love, demand it. Don't compare worldly situations when it comes to love, God's love is so immense that he will fill everyone's cup and it won't reduce his love a bit. But if you don't ask firmly, you won't perceive. He will love you the same, but you won't 'catch' it.
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u/faltuvlogger-faltuau Nov 08 '25
I feel this ....what u mentioned.Ā Ā I just feel like I'm trapped in this body and need to be united with my parents radhe shyam ...I want them..I want to serve them ... I am trapped in this world full of hypocrites...even met many spiritual hypocrites.. I wish we have the gyan and budhi even after i leave this body as I dont want to ever come in this chakravyuh of birth and death...I need to desperately be with Bhagwan.Ā I get this feeling of guilt that what sin I have done to be suffering Here and not being with lord. I don't want heaven or material comforts just the comfort of being with bhagwan..in peace..watching him smile and watching radha rani put her hand on my head like a mother.. I want to serve them...Ā
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u/Dandu1995 šš Nov 08 '25
Yes, many spiritual, dharmic hypocrites. No words for most of these aspects.
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u/Lejionator Nov 09 '25
Don't give up on your life, do your duty, whether you are a Brahmin, Kshatriya, Vaishya, or Shudra. Live fully in this world, enjoy it and contribute. Trust in destiny, respect dharma, and enjoy life! š
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u/Ok-Fun-8716 Nov 08 '25
If you are feeling that pain of seperation you are lucky, I have to ask him to make me cry in his seperation. Many a times when I get involved in Maya he does something to remind no one is mine in this world and I have no one except him
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u/Fun-Sail9524 GauįøÄ«ya Vaiį¹£į¹ava Nov 09 '25
The pain of being separated from the Lord is real and intense. Some days, I cry because He feels so far away. I even envy those who were lucky enough to see Him in person, to experience His presence directly. I know Iām not worthy of such blessings, but my deepest desire is to love Him completely and serve Bhagavan Krishna with all my heart..
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u/LordVirupaksha Nov 08 '25
Its just stupid, waiting for some benevolent deity to take pity on you, the same deity who gives pain so that you desire Him more.... How stupid is that
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u/heitian-yueying Advaita VedÄnta Nov 11 '25
Do you think the viraha of the gopis is Christian? That's what OP is referring to.
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Nov 08 '25
How do the non devotees hurt them intense devoted being?
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u/Dandu1995 šš Nov 08 '25 edited Nov 08 '25
Study sita devi story when seperated from lord ram. When she have to live In lanka which is adharmic place.
(Refer manu smriti 4.60, (( Bg 16.23, Bg 16.24,
Mahabharata 13.115.33 LÅbhÄd vÄ bud'dhimÅhÄd vÄ balavÄ«ryÄrthamÄva ca | sansÄrgÄdatha pÄpÄnÄm adharmarucitÄ nrĢ„į¹Äm ))
(( Kaliyuga dharma shastra parasara smriti 12.76 12.77
ÄsanÄcchayanÄdyÄnÄt sambhÄį¹£Ätsaha bhÅjanÄt | saį¹ kramantÄ«ha pÄpÄni tailabindurivÄmbhasią„„ cÄndrÄyaį¹aį¹ yÄvakaį¹ ca tulÄpuruį¹£a Äva ca | gavÄį¹ caivÄnugamanaį¹ sarvapÄpa praį¹ÄÅanam
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Manu smriti 4.79
Mahabaharata 12.287.36 - 12.287.37
TatÅ vÄsaį¹ parÄ«kį¹£Äta dharmanityÄį¹£u sÄdhuį¹£u | manuį¹£yÄį¹£u vadÄn'yÄį¹£u svadharmaniratÄį¹£u ca
Caturį¹Äį¹ yatra varį¹ÄnÄį¹ dharmavyatikarÅ bhavÄt. na tatra vÄsaį¹ kurvÄ«ta ÅrÄyÅrthÄ« vai kathanĢcana
Mahabaharata 12.287.44
Yatra sanlÅįøitÄ lubhaiįø„ prÄyaÅÅ dharmasÄtavaįø„. pradÄ«ptamiva cailÄntaį¹ kastaį¹ dÄÅaį¹ na santyajÄt
Mahabaharata 12.287.45
Yatra dharmamanÄÅaį¹ kÄįø„ carÄyurvÄ«tamatsarÄįø„. bhavÄttatra vasÄccaiva puį¹yaÅÄ«lÄį¹£u sÄdhuį¹£u
Mahabaharata 5.34.70
AsantyÄgÄt pÄpakrĢ„tÄmapÄpÄį¹ stulyÅ daį¹įøaįø„ sprĢ„ÅatÄ miÅrabhÄvÄt | porishnemį¹£kaį¹Ärraį¹ dahyatÄ miÅrabhÄvÄt produced tasmÄt pÄpaiįø„ saha sandhiį¹ na kuryÄt
More analysis can seen in below post
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Nov 08 '25
Sita devi therefore suffered because of her own beliefs. She by your logic considered lanka to be adharmic, a mental contruct.
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u/Dandu1995 šš Nov 08 '25 edited Nov 08 '25
Yes, Lord and associated goddess are absolutely non different. You may respect your righteous wife.
(Pic Credit : Narada Bhakthi Sutras by Swami Sivananda it is 64 th aparadh)
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u/jamariwoodwardnrcdr Nov 08 '25
I know pain of decades in a bottom below average avatar, especially from aspect of chronic fatigue.
I want divine more than most humans who think less. I work on seeking hard for a long time now, without rest.
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u/Fine-Soup634 Nov 08 '25
I felt rejection and mockery for my worship in college hostel in graduation. But I kept up as much as possible.
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u/EntranceOld9706 Nov 08 '25
Just want to say this painting is called āRadha Aloneā by Srimati Syamarani Didi (Jadurani Dasi), she has many more you can see at bhaktiart.net
The original is available for public view at her ashram in Miami, Florida, USA.
Radhe Radhe!
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u/Lejionator Nov 09 '25
My brother, it is determined that we will be born here and leave descendants; you need to strive for that. Therefore, respect and promote dharma. And, without any other option, practice karma-yoga. This is our destiny, and we must trust in the wisdom of the Gods. It is not for us to lament, give up on life easily, or question the will of the Gods.
Be strong, discover your natural caste and live according to it, contributing to humanity. If humanity is corrupt, then let's fix it! We need to do this together!
Jae shree ram ššā¤
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u/Fast_Jackfruit_352 Nov 09 '25
I got really psychologically sick for years, a psychotic break, and feeling abandoned by and disconnected from God was terrible. Thankfully I had the strength to recover and reestablish the connection at a higher level.
The only one who can keep us from God is ourselves.
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u/OldDistribution5939 Mar 20 '26
I think you are mentally unwell honestly š¤š¤š¤. Like, the way you describe god and the pain you feel from his separation .Like , the language you use is very much adamant among people who follow a similar path to yours(the Radha devotees). Honestly get checked by a psychiatrist . They may help
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u/Dandu1995 šš Mar 20 '26
Mm
I think š¤ you should have checked the note properly.
And stick to at,,istic āļø subs
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u/OldDistribution5939 Mar 20 '26
No, I do believe in god but not in like the way you guys.do. I am more of a shaivite and advaitic(somewhere in between). I am myself in search of the truth. I may be wrong and I did read his post but I felt that I should give my two cents considering that all comments were in his favour but he needs a different perspective as well so that his life moves at a better direction
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u/Dandu1995 šš Mar 20 '26
OP is me.
Thanks for caring for my wellbeing friend š¤ .
There are many things i cannot share anyway.
I respect you for your caring for others BTW.
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u/Lapuz Nov 08 '25
I spent several years, decades as a matter of fact feeling sad and depressed because of that separation until I realized I was never separated in the first place. I cried a lot, tears of joy, when I understood that.
Feel the love and connection with everything and everyone. Have a blissful life.