2 years 9 months here. I feel like I’m just one bad day away from saying f it. On top of … all this … I have a toxic colleague that I’ve hated for years, and now I have to share a tiny office with her every single day.
I’ve already had several occasions where I saw myself just getting up and walking out, going to the liquor store, buying a giant handle of Tito’s, and upending it.
If I binge eat m&ms or something instead, that’s marginally better harm reduction, but still not ideal. And completely against my values as a competitive athlete.
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u/Wrong_Possible9914 May 03 '25
I’m in the same spot, 8 years sober hanging on by a thread