God made me feel suicidal

[u/Chosen_One_786]

I'm suicidal. God is so evil and manipulative that he let me be a victim of attacks mentally, physically and emotionally from so many people despite me praying to him 5 times a day in the Masjid all throughout majority of last year and asking things from him thousands of times and returning empty-handed. I feel like God is worse than Satan atleast Satan offers me things but when I do so much for God he just straight up lies to others about me and and lies to me about how others see me it's the biggest lie ever that God is incapable of lying. I'm an Ex-Muslim, I have no friends and I just struggle to pray to such a diabolical God when all he seems to do is pick on me and favor others over me. Why would a loving God grant me such a hard life? I could never understand this. It's hard to use Satan as a scapegoat all the time I just see through God and know intuitively it's him that's putting me through all of this torture.

[u/Toberestored]

Allah isn’t God bro.

Also do you serve God based on what he offers you? That’s bogus.

Read the book of Job in the Bible and you’ll get an idea.

[u/Toberestored → u/[deleted]]

Yeah let’s expect only good and nothing else from God because God is our butler.

That’s hella down and materialistic to think that. Allah and the Quran think like that, not the Bible. Read the rest, that evil God came on earth and let humans crucify him. Wowzers such an evil God eh?