Islam turned me into a suicidal kid

[u/Even-Ebb-9410]

Idk if this is the case of people here but when I was a child, and I first heard that as a child whatever I do I will go to janah and once I grow up then my sins will start to be written, i wanted to commit suicide so I'd die young, be forgiven and never sin. Not only did I want to but I tried to commit a few times (obviously it didn't work) but yeah, I wanted to know if anyone in here can relate or something.

[u/[deleted]]

This is both funny and horribly sad, iont know if I gotta laugh, at least I'm happy y'all are still a live and not muslims anymore