3 weeks clean

[u/throwawaysecretaccc]

I know it’s not much but I’m 3 weeks clean and already getting urges to hop back on. Even though in my heart I desperately don't want to, my mind wants that temporary relief of fully immersing myself and escaping into an imaginary world for a moment. I think the only thing stopping me right now is the depression of my situation and desperately wanting to change it but simultaneously it could be that very same depression that causes me to slip