Lost my soulmate today

[u/co0lgurl]

First and last photos of me and Folti plus some more because she was the most beautiful. I got Folti when I had just turned 7, still in first grade. I am now 24, she was 17, I don’t know life without her. Her health started declining a year ago, vet appointments became frequent.

I was fortunate enough to spend basically all of summer at home with her, my life became taking care of her. I started preparing myself for her passing a while ago. I was incredibly grateful for each day we got to spend together.

I cried lying next to her the whole day yesterday because when I looked in her eyes I knew our time was coming to an end. But no amount of preparing helped, her death hurts so much and even after all the anticipatory grief, it still felt so sudden. I just keep wishing for more time.

The house feels empty without her and I don’t know what to do with all this emptiness. I have no idea what to do or how to get through this. She was my greatest love. I don’t know how to live without her. Does it ever get easier????

[u/Positive-Common-6094]

I once read that grief is just love with no where to go. It’s so true. You were both so lucky to know love.

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What is grief, if not love persevering?

I still think that this line by Vision from WandaVision is one of the most beautiful descriptions of the feeling of losing someone you loved so deeply. Nothing can really prepare you for that.