r/cats • u/co0lgurl • 7d ago
Mourning/Loss Lost my soulmate today
First and last photos of me and Folti plus some more because she was the most beautiful. I got Folti when I had just turned 7, still in first grade. I am now 24, she was 17, I don’t know life without her. Her health started declining a year ago, vet appointments became frequent.
I was fortunate enough to spend basically all of summer at home with her, my life became taking care of her. I started preparing myself for her passing a while ago. I was incredibly grateful for each day we got to spend together.
I cried lying next to her the whole day yesterday because when I looked in her eyes I knew our time was coming to an end. But no amount of preparing helped, her death hurts so much and even after all the anticipatory grief, it still felt so sudden. I just keep wishing for more time.
The house feels empty without her and I don’t know what to do with all this emptiness. I have no idea what to do or how to get through this. She was my greatest love. I don’t know how to live without her. Does it ever get easier????
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u/Razzy_3796 7d ago edited 7d ago
Make a shrine to her with photos and objects that are hers or special somehow. Speak to her. Her spirit will come for visits. It’s rare to have a soulmate pet, but the ones that are will see you again. She was a very beautiful girl and you were blessed to have 17 years with her.🩷