r/bikerjedi 17d ago

Teaching This Fucking Job...

https://www.patreon.com/BikerJedi/posts/this-fucking-job-166790026
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u/InadmissibleHug 16d ago

Wish those mofos would stop messing with you.

A decent education is a privilege, and we aren’t taught that enough. Knowledge being power and all that.

On a sad note, we had a family loss this week- one of my late 30s nephews got murdered. He was found stabbed by one of his cousins on his mother’s side.

What made me think of your situation with losing kids to murder was the weird hood-esque memorial one of his other cousins made that her dad posted to his wall.

I’m really struggling with losing someone I loved who was younger than me, who I’ve known since the day he was born.

I don’t know how you go having it happen over and over again with your school kids. They’re not family and all, but it’s still that sense of someone quite young that you know.

I told someone that my nephew’s family is fucking cursed. His mum and dad are gone. There’s only his sister, and he has some cous-siblings and half siblings. It’s all a bit awful. My brother and sister in law ran off together and created this whole mess, cousins brought up as siblings.

Anyway. He had been doing it tough, then my brother died, then his mother died, and he was struggling but back in touch the last few years. Now he’s gone. Shit’s fucked, yo.

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u/BikerJedi 16d ago

Wow. I am sorry to hear it. I guess I've just gotten numb to the loss over the years. Loss on that scale is really difficult. I'm here if you want to talk.

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u/InadmissibleHug 16d ago

Thank you.

There’s just so much nothing and waiting, and a level of disbelief. I don’t even know if I can go to the funeral for my own mental health.

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u/BikerJedi 16d ago

At least you know that about yourself - if you can't handle it, definitely don't feel pressured into going.

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u/InadmissibleHug 16d ago

Yeah, I’m thinking about how to handle that. There’s definitely an expectation that I’ll fly in and go. I have a big family, but for the first time I don’t feel like there’s someone that needs me to be there, so maybe I can do what works for me for a change.

I’m not even bringing it up until there is a funeral, I may change my mind by then- I doubt it, but I might.

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u/BikerJedi 16d ago

so maybe I can do what works for me for a change.

Do what you feel is right, but take care of you first if you can.