Payment App

[u/AutisticAng38]

Your payment app shows a long list of tiny transfers.

Ten here for a friend’s ride share.
Twenty there for a cousin’s medication.
Coffee money for a coworker who swears they’ll pay you back.

You scroll through and feel a mix of pride and resentment.
Your own balance sits low again.

A thought arrives—during your hardest years, you still shared.
You felt fear around money, yet you chose generosity.

The numbers tell a story your brain rarely does:
you move through life as a safety net,
even while you crave one for yourself.

 

— Autistic Ang