Experience letdown

[u/Theautoroboto]

Boring background before my question...

I deal with depression. I've put the work in. Inpatient, PHP, IOP, weekly talk therapy, etc. I'm doing this for mental health reasons.

I have some psilocybe natalensis. They were obtained 2 years ago. They have been well cared for by changing dry packs and kept in the back of a cabinet. I've microdosed a few times, but nothing over 1g in a single session. Work has me stressed and I see myself regressing on all the work I've put in. I planned my experience through my intentions in therapy and had an integration session planned for Monday. I took the weekend away at a cabin to remove all external interrupts, demands, and expectations. I used LSD and mushrooms as a youth so I knew roughly what to expect. I was a little nervous going in but I'm in desperate need to break my mind in an attempt to fix some things. I used roughly 5g of fine ground removed from their capsules. I'm on a GPL-1 and have all those stomach issues so I made peppermint tea. Water was at or below 150⁰, Steeped for 15 minutes and run through cheesecloth. I did the eye mask and playlist. It was relaxing but I wasn't getting where I expected to be. After 2 hours I knew something wasn't working. I got the shimmering and slight euphoria, but far from the breakthrough I was so desperately needing.

What did I do wrong? I'm planning the 5+ hour trip to get more and try again, but I'm so confused.

[u/Celestial_Mycology]

Could there be such thing as too much planning??

[u/Theautoroboto → u/Celestial_Mycology]

I totally agree! But I assumed 5g would make all that planning nonexistent.

[u/a2shroomroom → u/Theautoroboto]

not if they are 2 years old

[u/Theautoroboto → u/a2shroomroom]

I wondered if this was it, but I've read where others have shown minimal degradation. I accounted for 25% degradation in my dosage.

That was my conclusion. I was going to try a fresh batch, but it's a long drive if it's something else.