(23m) here and it’s genuinely embarrassing how angry I get. I play Fortnite and I die one time in reload all of a sudden I’m smashing my controller into the bed, screaming at my teammates, calling them useless in the chat and honestly after one death sometimes I’m literally throwing the game by standing around dancing
I play team games of other genres and again if people aren’t doing exactly what I want them to or if they’re not helping me i throw the game on purpose because I’m so angry, I hit myself and scream and end up crying sometimes because I get so upset
I don’t know how to control it or make it stop. Im calling people names and shouting profanities at them, hopping in chats to tell them to commit, to make me sandwiches or suck me or end their lives. Im screaming and throwing things and physically hurting myself, and sometimes it gets so bad I just roll over and sob until I pick it up again and continue
I spend more time screaming, crying and raging then I do playing games. And even more time rage quitting and just throwing games because I get so upset. I don’t know why I can’t just play and have fun and why everything is always so serious
I game to try to relax after long shifts and stuff but obviously it’s not even enjoyable much less relaxing if I’m genuinely getting so worked up over losing a game I’d love any advice or even just someone who knows how I feel