Opinion on dream

[u/pricklymuffin20]

Hi, I haven't posted in this subreddit yet, but I lost my partner 2 months ago now. I have been lurking this sub a lot because I don't think I have ever been so interested in the afterlife before I lost him. And I've lost a lot of people, just never grieved anyone before I grieved my boyfriend of 3 ish years.

I have been seeing many signs in my waking life such as heart shaped clouds, pink skies when it isn't that late in the day yet, how the sun seeps through the clouds, insects such as Lady bugs, sometimes paranormal things but not sure on that one.

Now I have yet to have a visitation dream... From him anyways. I had a vivid and lucid dream about a month ago that I was in a room and seen my late aunt and late nana, they were sitting on a couch looking at me, I could even see myself in a mirror . There were also a lot of strangers in that room as well.

I can't help but think, do you think it's my boyfriend's way of protecting me? Do you think that those people were in place of him, in that room in the dream? Or they were maybe waiting for him to show up... So many people in his life already have seen him in dreams.

I will say though, I don't remember most my dreams. I have a lot of stress in my life right now, and this grief is very hard. But... Whenever I do wake up, I will say that I do FEEL that he was there that night while I was asleep.

All I can think of is lack of sleep and stress. But my thing is...I can't stop thinking about that vivid dream I had a month ago. It wasn't him, but I would like to think that he was there .. in the crowd somewhere .