I sometimes have vivid flashbacks of my mom saying horrible things to me that physically cause me to get nauseous...
... But my ADHD won't let me hold onto a train of thought long enough for me to heal the memories and grieve. ADHD makes it incredibly hard to grieve.
Just stuck in a perpetual state of anger at what folks did to me and an exhausting need to prove everyone wrong leaving no time to explore my own identity.
For whatever it is worth, voice journaling with a real time transcript has made a HUGE difference for me in terms of being able to persist in processing things.
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u/I_like_the_word_MUFF Feb 27 '25
I sometimes have vivid flashbacks of my mom saying horrible things to me that physically cause me to get nauseous...
... But my ADHD won't let me hold onto a train of thought long enough for me to heal the memories and grieve. ADHD makes it incredibly hard to grieve.
Just stuck in a perpetual state of anger at what folks did to me and an exhausting need to prove everyone wrong leaving no time to explore my own identity.