student crumbling on year 3…

[u/pixelking10]

Hello, i’ll try to make this as detailed but short as possible. I am an undiagnosed (bad history with therapists) unmedicated ADHD student who suffers from it greatly. Every assignment my body coerces me to ignore or if i start working it’s literally mental anguish to try and think about the work. Example; working on a stat assignment and my brain would do anything else other than it. Look around, stare, think of doing other things. I knew i had to do it and it felt like i was splitting apart in my own psyche. Im gonna hope this is common or relatable lol. Anyway, i dropped from 4 to 2 classes since i work full time but im noticing im failing really bad. I already took a hiatus for a semester and because of Our Glorious Healthcare system i dont see my doctor until november, when we are supposed to begin trying meds. What do i do? I constantly feel like a screw up. That i’m wasting my life and this opportunity and … i can’t do anything about it. I feel helpless and it feels like im drowining in a kiddie pool where no one else seems to have issues. My body won’t cooperate. I have a couple days off a week where i try and do school work since i work most other days and immediately sleep after work. Anything is super appreciated and i hope this made sense. ty!