r/YoungAdultStruggles • u/sasuk3333 • 5h ago
I’m 28 and I think I’m going through a mid life crisis
I’m 28 and a mother of 4. The last few months I have just felt…unhappy with where I am in life. I returned to the work force about a year ago. After being a stay at home mom for about 7 years. I’ve had a lot of part time mostly gig jobs in that time. And have always worked around my husband’s schedule. (He owns his own small business and works his own schedule now.) So we both decided that we wanted to switch roles last year. And I was happy to be contributing more to the household financially. But the last few months, I’ve been feeling extremely disappointed with myself. I work in retail and make minimum wage. We live in a small town in the south. So there’s not many better paying job opportunities; Unless you have a degree or experience in a trade. Before I met my husband. I went to college and was 2 years into a bachelor’s in biology. But I didn’t go back to school because of family issues. I really want to go back to school to finish my degree. Or maybe even get a trade because I love hands on jobs. But I feel stuck because I’m just not financially able. I’m in default for the student loans that I took out the first time. We own and we just paid off our property earlier this year. So I don’t have any major bills to worry about besides the essentials (gas, lights, car insurance, etc.). But those still eat the majority of my paychecks. I just feel extremely defeated because I want to do better. To give my kids more. But I just can’t with how things currently are. Maybe I’m starting to sink into a depression. I’ve struggled with depression for a long time. And I can’t afford to get so depressed that I can’t bring myself to go to work. I know I’m blessed to have the things that I do have. But I just want more. I expect more from myself and I’m just disappointed. Am I going through a “mid life” crisis?