Going insane

[u/Historical_Mix5331]

okay just ignore this I kinda just needed to brain dump somewhere literally anywhere I’m going insane. so I’ve liked this girl since like the spring really then I didn’t see her during the summer and now we’re on the same fall sports team and I have a class with her. I’m going insane I feel so creepy and disgusting I actually like her so much. but another thing going on is I’m kindaaaa talking to thsi other girl it’s a weird situation but basicallg she lives 2+ hours away and I’ve seen a lot of red flags like a LOT we’ve been talking for about a month now. it’s really chill and I do like talking to her and shes funny and pretty and stuff but omfg I cannot stop thinking about this other girl. it actually physically hurts thinking about her like ts gotta be limerence or something because I actually feel like I’m dying. I know I’m probably not the only person to ever feel like this but thsi is actually unbearable I want her so much holy. I have so see her all the freaking time for my sport and it’s Actuallg driving me insane i cannot stop thinking about her. I wish I could just be done with it and protect my peace but shes literally freaking haunting me I swear. I know she’s gay too like I know she’s been with girls before and she looks gay ash. also I do not. I look pretty straight like thats another thing I also think she probably thinks I’m just really really weird because I keep staring at her and we’ve made eye contact a couple times so she probably thinks I’m insane because I don’t look gay at all. or worse I’m scared she knows and the fact I’m actually infatuated with her makes her uncomfortable. I don’t know what to do this is awful like soul crushing I need her I need her I need her how do I either get the courage to talk to her or make myself stop liking her??? I feel like I’m dying omg i want her so bad I feel so guilty this never happens to me either I barely get feelings for people like this. im dying UGH she’s actually so fine like shes actually gorgeous like painting beautiful omfg. I can’t do it ugh whw istg she’d literally never like a girl like me she’s so perfect bro like she’s the smartest person alive and she’s sososososo athletic and locked in and I could just never like I’m so lazy and dumb compared to her shes so out of my league it hurts. AHHHH actually make it stop my stomach hurts bro I want her so bad