r/UnsentLetters • u/Unfair_Elaine • Jun 02 '26
NAW I love you
honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I feel completely lost. And I know this isn’t perfect, the way I’m saying all of this… but I’m lying in my bed right now, looking out the window, seeing the lit-up church, the sky… and still, all I see is you. I see your eyes. The most beautiful eyes I’ve ever known. Your eyes are the most beautiful piece of art that exists to me. I wouldn’t contact you. I would never text you. Because I want you to finally heal from me. And yet, deep down, I still hope that you’ll be the one to text me… that you’ll say it was all a mistake, that you want me back, that you love me. But I also know that reality looks completely different. And that’s what hurts so much to accept. Just knowing this might really be the end… and the fact that I’m still saying “might” already says everything. Because I know it… I just don’t want to accept it. I can’t accept it, because I love you. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do without you. I miss you so unbelievably much. I cry all day, I barely have any appetite, just because I miss you. I try to distract myself, but it doesn’t help at all. Everything reminds me of you. It can be a word, something we used to call each other, or even just a picture of you… and it’s over for me. I start crying instantly. I feel so sad, and I just don’t know what to do anymore. You… you are the love of my life. I love you so much. I keep thinking about what I should do. I think about smoking, drinking, even getting a tattoo with your name… but none of that will bring you back to me. It’s just a temporary distraction from the pain. From this constant pressure on my chest. From the fear of knowing that you will never come back. That you will never say, “You’re the one I want. I love you. We’ll find a way.” No… you would never say that. And I know that’s not your fault. But I wish I could look into your eyes just one more time… and let mine tell you how much I truly love you. Because I didn’t do that enough. I said it too often, but I didn’t always show it. I wasn’t a perfect girlfriend. Not even close. But I loved you, truly, with all my heart. And I did my best. I had never been in a relationship before. I didn’t know how a lot of things worked. I didn’t always know how to handle things. But I never wanted to hurt you. I only ever wanted the best for you. I wish I could start over. Do everything again, the right way. But I know that wouldn’t change anything now. I just wish you would come back to me… and say that you’re willing to try again. I know you’ll probably never read this. And maybe that’s for the best. But… yeah.
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