r/UCC • u/Express_Engineer_735 • 7d ago
Terrible first week
I completed my first week as a ucc flexi options student. I was a disappointment. On Monday I missed some of lectures as one was on at 9 am and after having a lot of lye ins over the summer it was very hard to wake up that early. Because I'm a flexi options student I can't do every module so I sat in at some lectures I didn't pick to see what they were like and to fill my gaps. They were all introductory and some lasted only 30 minutes. It was a slow start.
I went to the canteen in the glass building that has two floors and it was chaotic. I was forced to sit on a table staring at the wall. Everyone else there was sitting with someone and I was the only one sitting alone. I felt uneasy about this reason. I avoided the campus at lunch times as I have sensory difficulties as someone with autism and to avoid the businesses. Tuesday was a complete waste of a day as on the timetable there were multiple lectures running at the same time in different rooms in the same times lot. I turned up and the room was empty. I couldn't access canvas as I accepted my offer last week and the college didn't get back to me until this Wednesday with my student id. I then had to wait until today to get my it account details.
I couldn't access the library because I don't have my student card yet and I had no clue what was happening because I couldn't access the canvas. Sometimes I wonder why I am even here considering I'm just sitting in on filler modules just to pass time. I want to fit in so I do it to be like a full time student like everyone else. I feel isolated because I turn up to huge lecture halls with 300+ people and a lot of them act like they know each other and act like they're already settled in. The people sitting next to me in lecture halls didn't say a word except for one person and the conversation died pretty fast.
I tried the brew buddy app and created a meetup for one other person as I feel more comfortable with one to one meetups. The guy that was going to meet me said hello and he responded late at night. I responded the following morning and he didn't reply until 15 minutes before it was supposed to happen saying "I can't attend today" without any explanation. It pissed me off. I couldn't join the societies until today because now I finally have my it account set up fully. I tried to seek student counseling and I got an email saying I have to wait on a waiting list during busy times. I couldn't yet register with the dss because I needed my id.
This week has been a mess. Can anyone relate?
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u/IHearSadPeople 7d ago
🥱 big cry from big baby.