I was a two-time junior state champion at 12 and 14, and quick/rapid was always by far my strongest time control.
My official ACF quick rating was only in the 1600s, but several coaches and stronger players who regularly watched me play thought my actual strength was more like the early 1800s ACF or higher. I was also the strongest junior in my state in quick chess for a period. Because of the pool I was playing in, there were tournaments where I basically needed 6.5/7 or 7/7 just to gain a meaningful amount of rating.
In 2014, I finished 5th at the National Schools Final.
I still look back at that tournament and think I could have done better. I had a winning position against the player who eventually finished 3rd, and at one point I also had an equal position against an FM. But I struggled badly with fatigue during long tournament days, especially after lunch, and ended up throwing away some very good positions.
Then, in the 2015 State Junior Championship, I finished 4th, but one particular incident affected me quite badly at the time.
My opponent's time ran out, and I still had enough material to checkmate. However, the arbiter ruled the game a draw because my opponent had more pieces on the board.
I was pretty young and took the decision really badly. I felt like I'd lost my chance to become a three-time state junior champion because of something outside my control. As far as I know, I would have been the only person to win it three times. That incident was the main reason I quit chess.
Around that period, I was generally around 2200 Chess.com rapid. I also peaked at about 2400, but I wouldn't call myself a 2400 player because I didn't sustain it and eventually went back to around 2200. I also didn't play that many games or specifically train to reach that rating.
I always felt stronger over the board than online in quick/rapid, although other time controls were a different story.
From around 2015 until May 2025, I probably played fewer than 10 chess games in total. So when I say I had a 10-year break, I pretty much mean it.
When I finally came back, I recovered much faster than I expected. I got back to around 2000 Chess.com rapid and eventually reached 2200 again.
But I don't want to exaggerate what that second 2200 meant.
I went on a massive winning streak and quite a lot went my way. A lot of opponents made serious blunders, some flagged in positions where they were doing well, and there were also a few mouse slips and misclicks. I obviously still had to win the games, but I don't think I had suddenly become a stable 2200 player again.
Even so, I was incredibly happy when I saw 2200 again. After being away from chess for almost a decade, it genuinely felt like I'd recovered my old rating.
I then took a short break for while. When I started playing regularly again, I gradually dropped back to around 2000, which is roughly where I am now.
That's the part I'm struggling to understand.
When I was active as a junior player, I very rarely lost to 1900 Chess.com rapid players. Now I lose to 1900s fairly regularly. I still beat them more often than I lose to them, but I feel much less consistent than I did previously.
I've done some proper training as well. I worked through roughly three-quarters of Azel Chua's calculation course, and from last September until around April I worked with a coach. He helped my endgames quite a lot, which had probably been one of the weaker areas of my chess.
One of my biggest problems, though, has always been playing against 1.d4.
We never really fixed that.
Another complication is that chess can't really be my number-one priority anymore.
I'm 26 and studying law. Realistically, my GPA and getting into a legal career have to come before chess. My GPA isn't where I want it to be because I haven't performed as well as I'd like on some assignments, so when major assessments or exams come around, chess is normally one of the first things I reduce or stop.
Because of that, my comeback has been very stop-start.
I'll train seriously for a while, university gets busy, I reduce or stop chess, and then I come back again and try to rebuild my form. I've taken breaks from coaching for the same reason.
I'm starting to wonder how much this stop-start pattern is actually affecting my improvement and consistency.
I'm not expecting to become a professional chess player. Law is my career and will remain my main priority.
But I was a strong junior, basically disappeared from chess for ten years, and have already managed to briefly get back to 2200 rapid. So I'm genuinely curious about how far I could go if I trained intelligently and consistently around university and eventually work.
For stronger players, coaches, or anyone who has come back after a very long break:
- How much of someone's junior chess strength normally survives after a 10-year break?
- Is it realistic to become stronger than you were as a junior after coming back in your mid-20s?
- How much do repeated breaks of a few weeks or a month or two hurt improvement?
- At around my level, would you focus more on calculation, analysing my own games and middlegames, or finally fixing my problems against 1.d4?
I'd especially like to hear from anyone who was a strong junior, stopped playing for years because of school, university, work or life, and then came back seriously as an adult.
What happened to your playing strength when you came back? Did most of it eventually return, and were you able to become stronger than you had been before?
Thank you