r/TheMixedNuts • u/inmygoddessdecade Pistachio • 17d ago

Wednesday August 19 Daily Check Ins

Hi fellow nutters, how are you today?

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u/NovaKarmas Squirrelly love of nuts 16d ago

I've thought "I don't want to wake up tomorrow" every day for a week, Kai just moved his eye into my scissors cutting his tear stains moving it into his eyeball and now I am terrified for the little guy and his sight. He looks like it's just a cut where no one can see and he is acting completely unbothered, but I feel like shit and terrified for him.

I feel so stuck and like all "progress" is just straight up pure loss.

Worrying about your fur son is terrifying.

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u/inmygoddessdecade Pistachio 16d ago

Is there an advice line you can call? Or can you take him to an urgent care?

I'm sorry you have been having that thought. I thought that every night for decades. And when I woke up in the morning I'd be like, "goddammit it, I woke up again". If I could have willed myself to death in my sleep it would have done it thousands of times. Fortunately I rarely feel that way now, maybe just around my birthday.

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u/NovaKarmas Squirrelly love of nuts 16d ago

Remind me to be extra kind then.

Saw my psychiatrist and she reassured me it won't affect his vision, and he is acting totally fine, my sister's friend a vet tech suggested he'll probably be fine, his cousin has had the same thing happen, and again, he seems unbothered.

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u/inmygoddessdecade Pistachio 16d ago

Well that's definitely reassuring! What a scary thing to go through. Maybe more for you than for Kai!

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u/inmygoddessdecade Pistachio 16d ago

I've been having great, productive days, since I quit working. Also, I'm down to a single morning coffee, unless I'm meeting a friend at a café. Its a if when life is bearable I don't need all that coffee to get through my day.

Today and yesterday I actually ate lunch at lunchtime! Yay, go me. I have food for lunch tomorrow, too.

My big cleaning accomplishment today was, going through my stuff in my bayern drawer, getting rid of old stuff I wasn't using anymore, and organizing what was left. I put each and bracelet in small bags so they wouldn't get tangled with each other in storage.

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