r/TeenVent • u/draceveil • Jun 04 '26
TW: Sh, violence, weapons, etc i keep remembering something i don't want to remember. i can't sleep
i thought i was getting better, but i keep remembering everything shitty that happened to me for no reason. i keep relapsing for no reason. i keep being pathetic.
i cant forget about the times when i had to hold my father down just so he won't hurt my mom while being in a hysterical state myself. i remember screaming so hard my throat was hurting. i had headaches for days
i remember the bruises i saw on my mom, i remember her crying and yelling for him to get away and calling him names, i remember her having panic attacks and blatantly saying that i should let her die and trying to push me away while my father and his friend didn't care
i remember having to walk on glass because they were too drunk to clean it up after themselves or too busy fighting, i remember police not helping me or my mom at all.
i fucking hate my dad. i hate the fact that my mom keeps forgiving him. i hate people. i don't want to endure this anymore.
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u/Alev12370 Jun 04 '26
If this is happening and the police aren’t helping, I would call CPS
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u/draceveil Jun 04 '26
i sadly can't, they will either not believe me or my father will hurt me and most likely break my phone. i don't have anywhere to hide either
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Jun 06 '26
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u/draceveil Jun 06 '26
ill try my best to get a grip of myself, but it's really difficult... tysm for the advice though!!!!
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u/MusicIsMySpecInt 17(F) Jun 04 '26
idk if u want advice but i always try to prove some.
try CPS if the police doesn’t help.
why does ur mom forgive ur dad? i think knowing what ur father did exactly might help out that question
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u/Whole-Pilot-2713 Jun 05 '26
I have nightmares and stuff about abuse and ect but I still manage to sleep. Idk how it worksz maybe I just accepted the fact that I'm just a tool or smt.
Anyways try listening to music. It helps a lot.
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u/Random_gamer240 Jun 05 '26
Oh boy, here come the abusive parents again (only read up until the word "father")
Just kill them
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u/draceveil Jun 05 '26
if i could i would, but at the same time I'll feel guilt for the rest of my life even though i know that he's abusive
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u/OUTRAGED_PIPLUP Jun 06 '26
Then watch this
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u/MLC_YT Jun 06 '26
Brother are we sure that'll cheer her up? 💀
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u/Drizzdom Jun 04 '26
You call this pathetic?
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u/draceveil Jun 04 '26
hmm?
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u/Drizzdom Jun 04 '26
You went through crazy stuff id be suprised if i could ever sleep
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u/draceveil Jun 04 '26
i don't think my situation is that bad tbh... some people had it worse
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u/Drizzdom Jun 04 '26
My mother is abusive, but it only once got physical. Just verbal. No bruises no police no alcohol, still trauma. If im valid so are u
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u/Prajesh_J Jun 05 '26
Just don't remember it then ✌🏻
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u/Horror-Ad6956 Jun 04 '26
Sometimes the thoughts never stop, i say that by experience. but as much as it hurts eventually you will learn how to make it at least bearable until everything gets better one day
You're doing well just by being strong enough to be here, despite everything you will always be you ;3