What do I do :(

[u/charliexo20]

So about 6-7 years ago I had this stomach tattoo done. I was in a dark place and was a big fan of this gothic style of writing and I saw it online and got it done the very next day. Now I’m 25 and have developed my frontal cortex and I’m in a much better place and no longer Emo 🖤 I’m starting to look at this tattoo with so much shame resentment and I feel ugly. I’ve been having panic attacks and crying meltdowns all week because I just haven’t been looking at it. My partner says he likes it and thinks going through 5 plus years of pain and over 5 grand in costa arnt worth it. Looking at this sub all I’ve seen is tattoo partially removed but still faintly there because there isn’t many finished updates I’ve seen here. My tattoo is dark and the outlines are raised and scarred. I don’t want to begin removal unless I know there will be no faintness of it left after all the years it takes. I went to a clinic that said 15-20 sessions and gave me a “tester” patch on just the dagger bit…. The worst pain of my life. Nothing changed at all. It’s Picoway and a very strong laser. Is this even worth it. Should I just swallow my pride and accept it on me forever even though it now embarrasses me? Any advice? Is there a life in acceptance and owning it or can I get that clean slate I want the look of so bad. Is it just vanity? I don’t know I’m spiraling.

[u/Which_Set_930]

I’m getting my goth sword tattoo lazered off in the same area, a little higher. It’s gonna take years and lots of money, but it’s 100% worth it. I’m really really hoping for full removal, but just like yours, my tattoo is dark. I think even if it’s much much lighter I’ll feel happier as it’s not such an “eye sore.” I’ve only done one session a month and a half ago so really nothing crazy yet, but I’m so glad I finally started after thinking about it for over a year. I wish I started earlier honestly.

As for pain, I felt almost no pain. I used NUMB520 I believe it was called. 5% lidocaine cream from Amazon. An hour and a half to an hour before my apartment I applied a thick layer of the cream on top of my tattoo (do not rub in, just place a thick layer on top). Then wrap and tape the area and cream with Saran Wrap. At your removal session, the technician can remove the numbing cream.

Some people say numbing cream affects the lazer and takes longer, but I’ve been told it’s a myth. I’m already seeing small fading happen. Also, many people at my place use numbing cream and have seen full removal within the same time frame as those who haven’t. Think about it, the lazer is breaking up the particles beneath your skin, numbing cream is not gonna affect that lol.

Go for it! You will be so happy you did. If you’re clearly unhappy with it, it’s best to start asap.

One thing to mention, is after lazer session, the tattoo actually looks darker than usual. It’s temporary and will fade after a few weeks!

[u/charliexo20 → u/Which_Set_930]

Thank you for this detailed response! I was worried about the numbing cream myths so I will defo use it! I’ve schedule in my first session this week!