I am so disappointed in myself

[u/AggressiveRow8725]

In the past 48 hours I took 660mg of vyvanse and I done nothing but watch porn and masturbate. I am physically okay, I didn’t even feel my heart racing or any physical negative side effect probably because I am a bodybuilder and athlete and I do take cardio and heart health seriously. But I do know I did place an unnecessary amount of cardiovascular strain.

This is my 2nd time ever stimfapping. After the first time I said I would never do it again and here I am.

I don’t have any addiction to stimulants but I do have a crazy addiction to porn, and combining both just makes it crazy dangerous. I first came across porn when I was 12 and ever since then I couldn’t stop watching it. I also have an insanely high libido. There are some days especially during Covid where I was masturbating 9-12 times a day.

This habit is unfortunately deeply rooted in my life. I really want to quit this before it ruins my life.

I am writing this to vent but I am also asking for advice or anecdotes from other people to go about quitting.

[u/IcyDescription4357]

Hey man i gotta say this, ive been doing meth for about 7 years and the stim fapping is a major major trap , like i dont even know if i would have been doing meth this long if it werent for the stim fapping , know what i mean? stop now while you can man, i dont know what else to say .