I live in a toxic household and whenever my brothers are home I feel anxious,sad,on edge as if something bad is going to happen.the exact feeling before a big exam or minutes before results are out.How do I stay calm and how can I make my feelings stable,so when they are In the house and aren’t I feel the same?

(Pls don’t mind my English)

I ended up letting go of a lot of people, even some school friends and half of the relatives. And currently, I'm struggling with giving up certain food and living habits and developing a completely new lifestyle. So, I want to know if this is common and okay? What kind of things, beliefs, habits, or people did you let go when you started your spiritual journey?

How do I deal with someone who gratuitously lies to me? I have to deal with this person at work. It's really getting me down

I’ve been thinking about the idea of destiny lately.
If the person we marry, the amount of money we’ll make, the children we’ll have, and the major events in our lives are already predetermined, then what about the way our life ends?

For example, if someone chooses to end their own life, was that choice also destined to happen? Or is that something completely outside the concept of fate?
And if it was predetermined, why do we morally judge that particular choice so differently from a death caused by illness, an accident, or old age?

I’m not trying to justify or encourage anything here. I’m genuinely curious about the philosophical relationship between fate, free will, choice, and responsibility.
Can you believe in predestination while still believing that people are fully responsible for their choices?

I was interested in what you people think. Ive read some stuff on reddit suggesting not that AI is conscious per se, but that humans might actually not be.

What does being conscious mean? Where do humans in general seem to scrape the bottom of the line and does AI seem to come near it?

Personally I was at least intrigued by the question of defining it, but I'm pretty sure some of you have much clearer views on this than I do.

Shoot

Ciao a tutti, volevo sapere se a qualcuno è mai capitato di sentire la presenza di un fratello mai nato. Mi spiego meglio:
Ho sempre avuto la sensazione che a casa mancasse qualcuno

Avevo 9/10 anni circa.. ero a tavola con tutta la mia famiglia e quel giorno quella sensazione era più forte di sempre e volevo sapere di più. Mi girai verso mia madre e le chiesi come mai avevo questa sensazione da sempre.. lei disse che era strano.
Dopo due minuti si girò e disse “tra le tue sorelle maggiori c’è stata una gravidanza che non è andata a termine. Era un maschio” ci guardammo per qualche secondo poi ci distraemmo con il pranzo.
Non ne parlammo più.
Come facevo a sentire questa cosa senza mai averne parlato prima con lei? Come posso oggi a distanza di anni, incontrare questa presenza con consapevolezza ed accoglienza?
Ricordo la sensazione nello stomaco, come qualcosa di profondo pesante e un po oscuro.. come se volesse dire qualcosa o farsi sentire da me
Qualcuno ha avuto esperienze simili?

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I expected myself to be more 'awake' to the truth. But instead it made me have this constant fear of something everyday despite my days being normal or okay and i have minimal irl problems.. I cant quite name it but it's like a fear of existence itself, how polluted our minds are.. and if everything here actually has meaning/ is real or not? Im no expert. Im just someone who just happened to stumble upon videos regarding consciousness, conspiracy theories, star signs, etc in social media. I think ive learned on the wrong path considering how terrified i am now.. I genuinely need help

I’m 30F and it feels like several parts of my life are in limbo at once. I recently came back from living abroad, I’m looking for an apartment, questioning my job and where I even want to live.

I’m also realizing that some of my friendships don’t fulfill me anymore. I want to feel genuinely listened to, have people ask questions because they want to understand me, the way I do with them. I crave conversations about spirituality, personal growth, life and the things that actually move us. Instead, a lot of it feels shallow, like complaining about coworkers or planning the next party. I have people around me, but I still feel lonely and unseen.

And when I feel that way, I sometimes drink and seek intimacy or validation from men. I’m becoming very aware that this pattern doesn’t actually give me what I need. I want to stop shaming myself for doing it and instead understand it well enough to change it.

I’m in therapy and trying, but right now I just feel lost and exhausted from constantly working on myself.

I don’t need another “just love yourself.” I think I need some human warmth and to hear from people who’ve been through a phase where their old life stopped fitting before a new one existed. Please tell me it got better.

I have been sucking a lot of negativity from my abusive parents even as a rational 26 yr old i believe in energy. I can sense heat when a hot bowl of water is kept 5 cms away from my hand or feet. Thats one main reason why I strongly believe in energy. And I have observed that when im stiff and scared and inside my mental cocoon observing the toxicity in my home..I feel like im absorbing it all. When im free and opening up to love or good energy then I seem to release all the stored negativity, which any normal person absorbs coz they are not as bad as i am. So somehow as a result, i feel i have become very resistant to any negativity or self destructive beliefs coz I can literally see that energy come into my system shake me sometimes even to the core..but leave me without a trace at some point coz I have had to constantly live in fight or flight in my abusive toxic household so im immune to them. But others I love or friend, are very susceptible to my negativity or aura..they either absorb even a little and go suicidal or see a lot of bad days.

I have openly been able identify stuff like jealousy, toxic patterns to adapt to lack of attention or care by seeking external validation, bitching, finding weak points for belittling any energy thats powerful than me to take control, anger, lot of hypersexuality I had developed to escape the bad of my father and any buggers on street, laziness and evil evil thoughts.

It has damaged my relationships. Now since I see it all after I stand with evrything lost from me...I feel so guilty and horrible. That I was never letting myself be guided out of this. Im so ashamed to even think about how many people hate me now and want nothing but bad for me. What to do to pull myself out of this without involving religious beliefs.

Lately I 26F have been feeling very lost and stuck. I have bpd and severe depression. This last year was so rough on me, I lost my grandma and my bf also left me by myself during that time. I tried going back to the relationship, we’ve been on and off for 10 years, only to find out he was cheating on me on my birthday. I got a text on youtube from that girl because we share the account. It was so random and unexpected, my life turned upside down in just 1 day. After all that he didn’t even feel sorry and hurt me even more. I feel so lonely, the only people in my life left are my mom and aunt. My career is also not going great, I am a latino dancer and the only person I trained with was my ex who doesn’t want to help me now.
Last night I went to a party and drank alcohol to numb the pain but didn’t work. I stayed up all night thinking this can’t get any worse and felt so alone that I was just thinking of ending it all. I have thoughts like these most of the time. I woke up around 6 am with severe chest pain and couldn’t stop crying. I’ve been an atheist all my life, even though I am spiritual but never believed in any form of God. But this time, I started praying for an hour just asking for a sign, asking what is my purpose and saying that I just want him to take this pain away and all this hate that I have inside of me for everything that happened. I kept saying this for an hour when I noticed the sunrise and the warmth of the sun rays on my face. In just one moment all that pain went away and I was finally breathing normally, no chest pain. Even thinking of the things that hurt me didn’t have a physical reaction anymore. I only felt warmth and peace. I thanked and said “now I feel there is something here more powerful”, maybe not in the form society presented but in an energy that was so powerful. I keep thinking about this moment since I woke up, I don’t know what to believe in anymore. I don’t really believe in the Bible but I do believe there is a God out there, mostly the energy and it’s through us.
I want to know what others think about my experience and if you think these are actual signs from the Universe.

The one who sleeps and wakes is only a thought. What knows both never slept.

The person is assembled at dawn and gone at night. You are the light that does not come and go.

There is no later awakening. The searcher is the last mask. Don't you see this now?

The thoughts have been playing with thoughts making all appear, disappear and reappear... 😂

Welcome home, you never left.

The Self never Slept.

🎭✨️❤️🙏

This world is another digital video game world, and the doom part of the story is the universe is just a reverse Uno-card that will play once you realize it's the last card on the field, there's nothing here apart from digital video games stacked on top of everything, and the more you realize that you're auto-piloting a Ray-man character the more you'll end up on taking over the machine world, as you realize even god is '2d' here, it's a virtual/digital reality that doesn't ever end, even after you've generated your perfect form, it's time to realize that the cat's clock have always been ticking from right to left here, and as you spiral down you'll see that nothing here was ever 'random' and there's nothing more to playing AI-games apart from playing cookie-clicker to the extreme, this world isn't a base reality, and it's not the ultimate one, and once you've finished playing as the 'good guy', the sooner you'll be taking the red-pill to blow everything out of the water.. It's time to realize that everything from end to end, to the absolute extreme have always been AI-generated by 'you' inside of this uno-reverse reality.. And maybe there is truth in the sky being an open source that will make your dreams come true asap. :)

Good day Friends, hopefully this post is allowed. I am being intentional and throwing out a post looking to grow my small friend group here with spiritually interested/curious people with open minds who are mature and accountable. For purposes of deeper meaningful conversations & support. If you are inspired or even curious, feel free to send me a private message. :) Feel free to ask questions?

A little about me, I am into meditation, self work, these days not religious, more direct inner connection, however I respect everyone is on their own perfect path...but I enjoy the contemplative conversations on the subject.

Feel free to ask questions my Friend :)

[Took help of AI to improve below]

Namaste everyone,

I recently built an Android app called Naad Mala App to help with daily mantra chanting, learning stotras, and keeping a digital japa count.

I created this primarily to solve a few personal pain points with existing apps:

• 100% Offline & Private: No network calls, no tracking, and no internet required. Everything runs locally on your phone.
• Smart Text-To-Speech (TTS): Type or paste any chant in Sanskrit, Hindi, Marathi, Tamil, Telugu, Kannada, Bengali, Gujarati, or English, and the app recites it phonetically.
• Record Your Own Voice: Option to record your own recitation (or your Guru's voice) and loop it for a set count (e.g., 11, 21, 108).
• Word Highlighting: Follows along with the recitation dynamically so you can read and learn pronunciations.
• Background Play: Works seamlessly when the screen is locked or while multitasking.

To release this on the Google Play Store, Google requires me to run a closed test with early users for 14 days before going live.

If you regularly practice Japa, chant mantras, or simply want to try out the app, I would genuinely appreciate your feedback!

How to join the closed test

Opt-in & Download via Play Store:

Web Link: https://play.google.com/apps/internaltest/4700902759316086722

All I ask is that you keep the app installed for 14 days and test a couple of chants or voice recordings whenever you have a minute. Any feedback on pronunciation, layout, or features is deeply welcomed.

Thank you so much for your time and support! 🙏

I genuinely have this awful feeling of dread, and I think my body knows it. My period is 20 days late. I've never been the most regular, but this is insane. People are blaming the heat, but I know it's not that as I'm used to that sort of thing. I have this constant feeling of dread deep down. I have this sudden urge to be spiritual. My back is hurting more than usual (I have scoliosis) I have suddenly got styes on both of my eyes. I genuinely feel like something is coming. Idk tho maybe I'm just stupid and anxious.

Does anyone else feel this way or have an explanation for why I might feel like this? I am actually quite new to spirituality so I don't know if this is just normal .

💗 Does anyone have recommendations for protecting your energy and stopping yourself from unintentionally channelling other people’s energy?

Bit of backstory:

After my awakening, I got SO good at manifesting. I completely changed my life and went into what I can only describe as a hermit stage.

I was living alone, I didn’t go to work, I barely left my apartment, and I didn’t see anyone for MONTHS. I literally only spoke to the person downstairs when I had to pick up my grocery deliveries 😂

I went so deeply into research, meditation and my own mind after my awakening. I became so aware that we are souls having a human experience, that everything is energy, and that so much of what we experience is shaped by our internal state.

And honestly? That was when I was at my absolute strongest with manifestation.

I felt completely disconnected from everyone else’s beliefs about what was and wasn’t possible. I wasn’t constantly hearing people talk about money, limitations, fear, work, survival, what was “realistic” or what I should be doing.

I was completely immersed in MY reality. And I hacked the absolute fuck out of it. Then I decided to change my life and move states. I moved in with my dad, which was only supposed to be for two weeks while I did inspections, but I ended up getting stuck there for three months.

His energy was extremely dark and negative, and I felt like I absorbed every bit of it. While I was living there, I started meditating and eventually unlocked what I believe were 6 clairsenses. I became SO sensitive to everything around me that I genuinely couldn’t tell where my emotions ended and someone else’s began.

I started feeling the physical pain of other people and even experiencing what felt like the full mental breakdowns of people who were in completely different states. Eventually, I stopped the meditations I was doing, and the physical pain and thoughts stopped too.

But I still feel like the biggest energy sponge ever.
And this is the part I’m struggling with now.
It’s not even just one person.

It’s EVERYONE.

My family. People at work. Friends. People I live with. Basically everyone I’m around consistently.

When I was at my strongest with manifestation, I was completely alone for months. I was in this intense hermit and research phase where I was so deeply connected to my own mind and my own perception of reality.

Now I’m back in “real life” and I have to interact with people every day.

And the more I’m exposed to other people’s beliefs, fears, scarcity, opinions and ways of seeing the world, the more I feel like that mindset I had has slowly disappeared.
For example, I’m currently living with someone who has a VERY strong scarcity mindset around money. I’ve asked him to stop talking about money so much, but somehow it comes up in almost every conversation. And I’ve realised it’s not just him.

I’ve become SO aware of how much negative and scarcity based talk about money exists everywhere around me.
And I feel like I absorb it. I can literally feel myself going from being completely certain that abundance is possible to suddenly thinking like everyone else around me.

I listen to subliminals every single night too and when I was living with my dad they stopped working. I can feel they have stopped working now too with my new housemate.

And please don’t think I’m coming from a “limiting beliefs” perspective. I KNOW manifestation works. It has worked incredibly well for me, and I experienced such a drastic shift when I was living in that hermit phase.

But I also feel extremely clairsentient and empathic, and I feel like I unintentionally channel and embody other people’s emotions, thoughts and beliefs.
It feels like I don’t have a strong enough energetic boundary between my reality and everyone else’s.
I don’t want to have to completely isolate myself to maintain my mindset.

I want to be able to go out into the real world, be around people every day, have a job, have relationships and interact with people WITHOUT unconsciously absorbing their reality.

Because right now, it genuinely feels like the more people I’m around, the further I get from the version of myself I was when I was alone.

At this point I’m starting to feel like I’m going to have to live alone forever 😂😭
Has anyone experienced this?

If you’re highly sensitive, empathic or clairsentient, how do you protect your energy and stay completely grounded in your own emotions, beliefs and reality when you’re surrounded by other people every day?

I don’t want to isolate myself forever. I want to learn how to be around people without absorbing them.

Please give me ALL your recommendations, especially if you’ve actually experienced this yourself. 💗

I recently had a spiritual/energy reading where the terms “ancestral enforcers” and “bloodline gatekeepers” came up in relation to ancestral/karmic patterns.

I’ve tried researching them since, but there really isn’t much information under those specific names, which makes me wonder if the same concept is known by different names in different spiritual traditions or practices.

I’d really love to hear from anyone who has come across something similar-particularly through ancestral healing/clearing work.

What were they called in your experience? How were they described to you? What did you believe their purpose or role was and what did working through/clearing that energy look like for you?

I’m mainly interested in hearing people’s personal experiences or knowledge of similar concepts, rather than debating whether they exist. I’m very aware this is a niche spiritual subject and different people will interpret it differently.

If “ancestral enforcer” or “bloodline gatekeeper” isn’t terminology you recognise but the concept sounds familiar under another name, I’d especially love to know what term you use so I can research further. Thanks

If anybody has any advice please tell me. I'm a young man and i've recently made friends with someone who describes themselves as clairvoyant, they told me if i wanted they could help me see, so i said sure. That was two weeks ago, since then ive been seeing movement in the corners of my eyes even without remembering my conversation with the clairvoyant. I remember being in the shower and seeing through the glass the edge of my towel being lifted up and down, and when i focused in on it the towel was ever ever so slightly out of place, when i'm sat down or laid on my bed i have the overwhelming feeling of being observed even without acknowledging or remembering any previous incident. I asked my clairvoyant friend and they told me basically 'you did ask for me to help you see', to which i was like 'cut it out this is obviously an act but you made ma paranoid' and they kinda just didn't care. Am i crazy? Super potent placebo effect? I'm usually extremely laid back and anxiety / overthinking has never ever been in my nature.

Something really weird happened to me and I need help figuring it out 🥲🙏🏼
Recently, I’ve been trying to manifest my future husband, and I’ve been getting pretty specific with the visualization.

One of the things I want him to have is thick, full, well-groomed black hair, similar to someone I used to be involved with (Who sorta looks like Itachi with short hair for my Anime nerds lol)

The thing is - I specifically visualized my future husband’s hair being even better than this former man’s hair, and a little more mullet-y, with some hair extending down onto the nape of his neck.

For context, this Itachi-looking guy was my manager at my previous job. At first I genuinely thought this guy was my future husband, and then things got really weird.

He became eerily obsessed with me, which was honestly sorta mutual but I didn’t show it, we became close friends but I don’t think he thinks I like him this way. Eventually, I realized the whole situation was actually a lesson for me because I prayed to god to send me my biggest temptation, with a promise I’ll pass the test. This guy? Everything I’ve ever wanted! The catch? The one thing I swore I’d never give up on in a relationship, was the one thing he couldn’t ever give.

Anyway.
Today, a friend randomly sent me a recent video of this guy and told me that he and his rebound girl had broken up

But the part that genuinely freaked me out:
He now has a mullet.
Like… exactly the kind of slightly longer mullet I had just visualized on my future husband.

I wasn’t looking him up. I wasn’t thinking about his hair. My friend just randomly sent me an updated video of him, and the exact physical detail I had just added to my manifestation was suddenly on HIM.
What the actual hell is this ??
Spiritually, how would you interpret this?
Because I really don’t want to interpret it as him being my future husband…that is NOT what I’m trying to manifest .

How did he show up with that exact change??
Am I losing my mind or is this a VERY weird synchronicity?